suckonthatttttttttttttt.

2009-08-18T18:15:00.000+08:00

Won't be blogging here anymore :D .
Ask me for the new link then. HAHAHAHA .

2009-07-21T19:01:00.001+08:00

What's with blogger man ._. Can't type a simple entry luh . Went out with Isabel,Chrysillia,Celine,Wanzhen,Angeline,YingYi ,WangTing and her sis to AMK hub on saturday. Woke up, body aching all over, high fever of 38.2 , and throat pain. Though i couldn't go out , but still managed to sneak out and meet them. Overall was fun (: . Watching Harry Potter And The Half Blood Prince, was terribly dissapointed . Thought would be very exciting as the book itself , but nope . Was boring throughout . Freezing in the theatre . Went home around 11pm . Was supposed to go out with CJ on sunday, but she overslept , and was locked in thanks to dad -.- . Didn't attend school on Monday and Today , as im sick . Had the symtoms of H1N1 .

2009-07-13T19:06:00.002+08:00

I'm sorta having a fever now.
Suckyyyyy ._.

Had a fight with melissa, yes we always fight , but i just broke down all of a sudden.
Don't know why, maybe cause i'm tired of enduring the pain , the torture.
And i had to cried in the toilet silently , how pathetic.
So i actually called Lfei up. His always the 1st person that come across in my mind, cause his always available! Okay only for me la ^^ . HAHAH .
Then realised i woke him up from his sleep. Can't believe he sleep during the day , active at night.
Night Owl.

As i was saying , I CRIED FCKING HARD OKAY.
SOOOO DEPRESSED I TELL YA.
I felt emotional unstable, as flashes of playback in my mind, i really had the urge to kill myself.

But then, we talked for awhile , and soon hang up cause this fellow sounded drowsy .

So i texted to Baby about it ..
HIS REALLY FCKING SWEET ^^ .
So protective, wanted me to move to his house, with him taking care of me.
awwwww .
But i doubt i can, cause yingyi gave me a warning. gawddd >:

Anyway, I HAVE THIS CHINESE ORAL THINGY ON WEDNESDAY.
HEARD IT WAS FOR MY O LEVEL !?
OMFGGGG .

I'm not really good with chinese , especially in dialact.
I get 'stage fright' , mumbling words, argh argh.

2009-07-12T13:10:00.002+08:00

Did i mention i really hate 2009 ?
SUCKY SUCKY.

Honestly, when i heard i got into 3Sin, my heart immediately sunk !
I was totally seperated with clique , Wz & Isabel & Yvonne in 3 Charity , Angeline & CongHao in 3 humility , Chrys & Celine in 3Unity .

Which resulted me crying ALMOST everyday during the 1st few weeks of school .

Doesn't mean that LiJun is no good, but i didn't really knew her, or even had a proper talk with her during 2007/2008.

But now, it's July 2009 already ! And i'm kinda happy with my class ,
excluding the part where i'm found to be a bitch in many people eyes.
But yea.. I'M GLAD I HAVE LIJUN, NADIAH , STEPHANIE , CHARMAINE , XINHUI , AND EVEN (SHERVIN , SOKMAN , JIANMENG) .
At least i don't find it a torture going to school everyday with them ^^ .

I realised i tend to have the habit to pon school in 2009 .
Not intentionally at 1st !
Gastric pain was hurting me okay !
But ya, slowly i tend to use gastric pain as an excuse to get out of school .

I'M HOPELESS AT STUDY OK. I REALLY ADMIT.
NOT THAT I'M LAZY OR WHATEVER THING.
I JUST , FIND I CAN'T DO IT.

I hate it when mum starts to get obsessed with what the fortune teller tolds her , that i will be damn successful in future if i get my head into studying !
And it gets into my head ever since, -.- .

And he said " All your relationships would end very fast, as you will get cheated by each guys . "
WTFFFFF . SLAP HIM MAN !

Thanks to what he said, i'm really starting to get paranoid , worrying about Alex dumping me or whatever shyt .
z.z

I lost a few important stuffs to me during 2009 .
Friendship, Trust .

Back in 2007/2008 , i had tons of 'friends' , but i started to lost contact with each and every of them . I bet they don't even remember my name -.- .

Right now in 2009, though i really hate it, but i have to face the facts.

Time cannot be rewind .

I rather to have just , a few couple of good friends , whom i can really trust them with all my darkest secrets .
Then a big group of friends , whom i don't even think i can trust.

I poured out my deepest thoughts and feelings to ZhenRong on Thursday.
To be more exact , His my that handsome tutor i have been talking about.
The one who is like, 10 years older than me ): .

His the last person i ever thought i would cry in front of him, But i did that in the end..

I told him what's my point of view in life, How i really feel towards my family , that i just locked it right inside my heart.

Though it was just a few minutes , but i felt much much better .

Honestly , if i have any problems that i wanna get off my chest,
I only confide to Lfei, CJ .
That's it.

Not that i don't trust clique, but i find that they probably are too busy with their own problems.
Wherelse YingYi , sometimes i really hate it when she gets sarcastic with me -.- .

I hate it when people ' fu yan ' me , giving me those sarcastic remarks or comments.
I hate it when i have a problem, and i told you about it , you just keep telling me it's alright , when you perfectly knew it's not gonna be alright in the 1st place !
I hate it when i'm left alone .
I hate it when you come to find me when your in trouble, and kicks me off when you don't need me.

-Not referring to anyone-

2009-06-28T17:42:00.006+08:00

JUNE HOLIDAY IS AWESOME !

Don't wanna go back to school man ):
4 weeks just pass so quickly, argh argh .
I still wanna have fun , i don't wanna study !

ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR .

The last week of holiday was freaking fun ! And tiring at the same time ):

Monday- 5 HOURS OF MATHS SUPP. IN SCHOOL .
I WAS LIKE " SIAO AH MISS GOH, PLANNED 5 HOURS OF MATHS FOR US . -SCREAMS- "

So i actually slept at 11pm the night before . SO GUAI RIGHT ^^ .
Previously i had a similar maths lesson which is at freaking 8am ?!
And i actually slept at 3-4am plus .
Was on phone with dear love . ):

"ONCE BITTEN TWICE SHY" .

1st hour was completely long ..
Lijun and i were doing countdown ,
4 hours for me to go ! 8 hours more for her ! ( due to band practice , so she gotta stay at school from 8am- 5am , HAHA . )

AND AND, MISS GOH ACTUALLY RELEASED US 1 HOUR EARLIER !
WOWOWOOW .

So i went back home, sibei tired la !
And i waited for dear WONGCHUNJING to be released from work.

Went meet her at 5plus , went to get the comics.
The shop lady was very nice ^^ .

Hang around there for like 1 hour ?
Then went to tampiness .
Queeue up for the doctor appointment.

She specializes in dealing with face conditions .
SO YEAP, CJ WAS PRETTY DESPO TO SEE HER.
LOL.

But the thing was, QUEEUE FREAKING LONG LA.
LOLL .
When we reach there , it was like, " pai chang long " .
):

SOOO, WE WAITED WHILE WE READ THE COMICS, AND THE CLINIC FINALLY OPEN !!!!

LUCKILY, WE REACH THERE IN TIME, AS WE'RE THE FREAKING LUCKY ONES TO BE LAST.

REST OF THE PEOPLE WHO QUEEUED BEHIND US HAD TO LEAVE.
HAHAHAHHA .

HENG HENG ;X

But we still let a lady who sort of begged us to let her be in front of us -_- .

WENT FOR DINNER AT KFC, WHICH WAS CJ AND CALYN'S WORK PLACE.

( This charbo say for so long want quit the job, but still don't want -.- )

AND WE MADE A VERY SUDDEN DECISION.

TO WALK BACK FROM TAMPINESS TO MY HOUSE (BEDOK) .

I really dunno why i agreed to this crazy girl's idea , but still, we really walk back, AND IT TOOK US 2 HOURS . -_-

CAMWHORED ALL THE WAY. BUT CJ ACCIDENTALLY DELETED ALL MY PHOTOS IN THE CAM. LOLLLL .

She kept constantly apologising to me ):
And she insisted us to retake all the jumping photos.

We're like jumping around the pavement , and roads like siaolang ._.

GOD DAMN TIRED WHEN WE REACH HOME. LEGS ACHING .

Took a bath and went in my room.
Helped CJ do pedicure . LOLL .
I almost got my hair and face painted with nail polish. YUCK YUCK.

Took a tiny weeny nap for awhile, and went off again at 1am for the appointment.

Stayed there for like, half an hour or so. AND THAT DAMN LADY AT THE COUNTER FCKING RUDE -'- .

They send a sms telling us to arrive at 11.40pm , when actually before that when CJ asked for the estimated time when we should come, THE MALAY COUNTER LADY SAID 1AM LO !!!

AND WHEN WE TOLD THE LADY, SHE JUST REPLIED

" It's none of my buisness -diao- "

.

I almost wanna jump on her and pull her goddamn hair .

LUCKLY, THE DOCTOR WAITED FOR US .
HOW'S THAT LADY. PFFFT.

Paid like, $90+$120+$60 = ?

$270 !!!

CJ was like , " 爱美就要付出代价 " .
-_- .

Went home and slept at 2am ++ .

AND I MADE BABY REALLY REALLY PISSED OFF/ANGRY AT ME THAT NIGHT.
T.T.
I swear i almost cried.

BUT STILL EVERYTHING WAS ALRIGHT IN THE END ^^.

TUESDAY- Didn't went for the maths supplementary, cause I OVER SLEPT.

I bet LIJUN hates me that morning. LOL .

WEDNESDAY- WENT OUT WITH CJ AGAIN ^^ .
BUGIS BUGIS . FOREVER MY SHOPPING PLACE. LOL.

I spent about .. $90++ ?
>: .
I bought mummy a dress too . ^^ .
YET I WAS FCKING FURIOUS WHEN I SAW THE EXACT DRESS GOING AT HALF PRICE OF WHAT I FORKED OUT.
-SMACKS-

1st time went shopping felt sibei tong ku.
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And went for dinner at the cafe , LIKE FINALLY !
WENT THERE WANTED TO HAVE DINNER PREVIOUSLY 2 TIMES, YET IT CLOSED -'- .

So i was freaking happily la, obviously when we went in. LOL

Ordered our meals, and we both were like completely famished.
YUMYUM ^^.

THURSDAY- I forgot what i did ._.

FRIDAY- MEET UP WITH DEAR CJ AGAIN !
MUAHAHA.
Went to shop shop ! I FINALLY BOUGHT MY HEELS.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH .

Cost me a bomb ._.

Wanted to buy more... but CJ kept pulling me away >:

Rushed back for tuition last minute , Argh.
Couldn't concentrate leh, But the thought of Mr Ho leaving for AUSTRALIA AND WOULD NOT BE HERE IN 1 MONTH, MEANS NO TUITION FOR 1 MONTH.
YAYAYYA . ^^.

Went bought my tiramisu , and went back home with CJ .

SATURDAY- Was supposed to meet with YY to deal with my homework, BUT WAS CANCELLED.
Damn sucky luh my mood. -_- .

Then isabel texted me at 12pm plus for last minute outing, SO YAY ^^.

Got prepared in 1hour time, but was lazy to get out of house, taking mrt all the way to Plaza Sin.
SOOOO, i took a taxi instead ;xxx .

Reached there at about 2.30 pm , kinda awkward at 1st when met them, due to the previous outing, kinda had a conflict with them.
But at the end of the day, i really never regret ^^ .

I MISS MISS THOSE GIRLS ALOT, ESP. CLIQUE .
♥♥♥.

Went shopping again, BUGIS. HAHAHAHAH .
Isabel wanted to shopped there la , soo ^^.

Shopped for awhile, went bought tickets for the movie , " Ghosts Of Girlfriends Past " .
Yeap, my 2nd time of watching ~

Not bad though, but if i watched it again for the 3rd time, i would sure fall asleep. LOL.

Went back to shop again ^^ .

Legs were aching , bleeding still . ALAMAK.
So all of us went our seperate ways, Mum called for shopping spree with her.
REALLY WANTED TO GO ):

But can't stand the pain, so cancelled .

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2009-06-24T23:57:00.002+08:00

Back with blogging.
I found this really really neat skin , Love it to the max ! ♥
But i'm really lazy to update the profile ..
(x

I'm crazy about comics these few days, influenced CJ too .
Have been spending money on some stuffs that i should not even do so..
Yet can't resist temptation.

Went out with CJ on monday till 1am plus ..
Lazy to elaborate . FUN FUN FUN TO THE MAX.
But i made him really angry that day...
At that very second, i thought he wanted a breakup.
I could really break into tears for the second time.
Bwahs.

Just came back from outing with CJ once again.
I spent $80 ++ on clothes , food .
But i spent half of it on a dress for mummy ^^ .
The shop lady seems really nice , friendly too.
She's actually going 50 , when she looks like 30+ ?
Uh, it's impossible.

And then i found out i got dupe , saw the exact dress at another shop at half price of what i paid.
Wthzxzxzxz .

I saw the heels i wanted, i saw the bag i want badly ...

So i made CJ came back with me on friday (x
Yet couldn't go out with Bel on friday, sorry sorry ):

My homework is half done..
Argh, shag .

2009-06-11T23:06:00.002+08:00

I don't know if anyone is reading this dead blog or not , cause i have not been updating ;x
When i just clicked on this particular page, my mind went blank at once !
Even though if i have ALOT to rant about .
heh .

It's the June Holidays, time passes REALLY fast eh.
It's the second week , i barely touched on my homework ):
Though i remembered i did touched on my chemistry paper, mostly copied from YaChing's .
I REALLY WANTED TO DO ON MY OWN , but i gave up when i finished the 40 MCQs. HAHA.
So i took YaChing's paper for reference ;x

Couldn't really catch up with clique on outings , last minute backed up on 3 of the outings ?! ):
Walao, thanks to quarreling with dad almost EVERYDAY LA !

Locked me up, don't let me out of the freaking house.

*Mum's crying at this moment after a talk with grandma *
Really hate it when people cry, makes me feel damn fcking helpless :/

I miss clique badly, and i really do.
Just the 8 of us, hanging out, laughing like nobody's buisness .
I miss the old times.

Sometimes, i will just relflect on my past behaviour towards people .
And i fcking hate myself.

I blame myself for not taking the initiative when dealing with matters.
I blame myself for NOT TRYING MY BEST TO HELP OTHERS WHEN IN NEED.
I blame myself for drifting apart from clique.
I blame myself for not opening up .

It's just fear. That very fear deep inside of me.

*
Melissa just cursed me to die.
Yea i wish i can just die and leave this god damn world.
I really wish i could.

But i cannot bear my loved ones, i still have so much i want to do !

I thought this holiday would be a best time for a break, yet not .
Sucky homework );

Anyway, i just came back with mum from shopping .
I bought 3 pairs of heels, and make up.
AHHM THANKS MUMMY <3.

I have the urge to grow up, working , and spending money, MONEY THAT I EARN .
With no limit on daily allowance.
Sounds fun :/

I wanna have my own bank account, my own Visa card .
roarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr .

money , money $_$ .

Baby is like on a fishing trip today.
Nia eh, act 1 go fish . HAHAHAH .
And his phone went dead, HOW CAN !? ):

I'm gonna spammed him ...
But on second thought, NO.
Phone bill boom liao leh );

2009-06-01T11:24:00.003+08:00

I'm crying like some pathetic shyt right now.
I fcking hate many many people .
Dad scolded me useless again , ONCE AGAIN . TY LAH HORH.
I KNOW I'M NOTHING TO YOU RIGHT.
VENT YOUR ANGER ON ME FOR WHAT .
NB _l_ .

MUM KEPT GIVING ME EMPTY PROMISES AGAIN .
BLOODY BITCH.

CJ PRATICALLY 'DUMPED' ME FOR HER SHITTY SCHOOL OUTING.

I seriously don't know how to look at her when i knew i'm exploding with anger deep inside.

-'-

2009-05-28T19:39:00.004+08:00

This world can be so cruel .
I hate everyone now . It felt as if every person i see is a 2 faced monster or something.
You can be so sweet and lovable , yet a backstabber , a bitch behind my back .
I hate it when people assume i'm in the wrong , when i keep my mouth damn shut just to prevent any conflicts.
It doesn't mean i acknowledge I'M IN THE WRONG when i'm silent.
PEOPLE JUST ASSUME OR PREDICT WITH WHAT THEY SEE AND NOT CARING ABOUT THE TRUTH FACTS .

How pathetic.

I'm not saying i'm perfect, with no flaws.
But yea, i really tried to be pleasant in front of my friends , i keep mum about unpleasant stuffs i hear, nasty words coming in from one side , and out from the other ear.

I don't want it to seem that im being biased or something, i'm not siding with which side , but the facts.
Why can't just people try to be calm. To think clearly before they open their mouth.
Why can't they just put themselves in other people's shoe.

Why does it seem like everyone is like an angel with 2 horns .
Pretending to be angelic, when they are god damn evil .
What's with all these pretending ?

I'm tired trying to please my family , or maybe even friends.
It's hard being the middleman, trying not to get involved in anything.

It seems heartless if i just leave my hands off the matter and walk away, Is that really what a friend should do ?
I just want to help .That's all .

Why do human minds have to be so complicated ? Why can't we think simply .
It doesn't serve us any good then.

Not refering to anyone , just pointing out my views and rants. It seems like im typing out a piece of crap as it just comes off from my mind .

Aiya, i think i'm being a bitch too .

2009-05-21T20:45:00.002+08:00

Today is indeed a fcking day for me.
I just couldn't control anymore, and i fcking cried inside the taxi.
Not forgetting it's full of the smell of smoke , AND THAT TAXI DRIVER HAS COMPLETELY SUCKY ATTITUDE .
HE ACTUALLY DAO-ED ME , THROUGHOUT . I KINDLY TOLD HIM MY ADDRESS, HE JUST DIAM DIAM . CONTINUE DRIVING.
WHEN I SAID TURN RIGHT TO HIGHWAY, HE TURN LEFT -.- .
IDIOT.

(I really wanna calm myself down, but still can't control )

Shall cut it short form , as im freaking tired .

Today is the heats for sports carnival , the captain's ball and floorball.
Well, i , angeline , Audrey , Wanzhen were the emphere . ( referee or something. )
In charged for the Sec 1,2 and 3 matches.
AND I FCKING REGRET IT OK !?

I CAN'T BELIEVE SOME OF THEM, MAYBE A FEW , BUT I SWEAR IM GONNA RMBR THEIR FCKING BITCHY FACES TILL I GRADUATE .

Honestly , WE DO NOT PERFECT EYESIGHT SO DON'T EXPECT US TO SPOT EVERY MISTAKE THE MEMBERS MADE. YOU THINK IT'S FINE BLOWING THE WHISTLE EVERY SINGLE SECOND ?!

AND WE'RE FCKING NOT BIASED OKAY . * I totally heard this from this fcking bitch who said don't want me as the emphere. OH SO ? & the timekeeper told me i had scolded " fck you " to her. Which i don't have the slightest idea when i said, and i'm jolly happy i said that to her.

YES, SO WHAT IF I'M EAGLES ,SO WHAT IF I HAD ACTUALLY KEPT ON BLOWING FOR YOU HAVING A FAULT . AND YOU JUST SAID I'M BIASED BASED ON YOUR THOUGHTS WITHOUT GETTING A WHOLE UNDERSTANDING OF THE SITUATION ?!

PLEASE GET THE FCKING IDEA STRAIGHT.

1) Mrs Ku has already said the rules which are applied, and explained CLEARLY TO ALL PLAYERS.
( Or maybe you're just too deaf. Tsk )
2) YOU DID MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE , ON STEPPING THE LINE WHEN THROWING IN THE BALL . AND I REPEAT , THE TOTAL SAME MISTAKE MORE THAN THRICE.
( Get a brain ok ? )

3) YOU HAD PLENTY OF FOULS BUT I DIDN'T POINT ALL OUT! ( Totally not being biased, just that angeline had noticed it out, but informed me not in time. )

SCREW YOUR PEA BRAIN, BITCH .

And SOME PEOPLE HAVE TOTALLY NO RIGHTS AT ALL IN SCOLDING US, THE EMPHERES DOGS PLEASE .

Get a fcking good look in the mirror .
Honestly, though i don't know you , don't have the impression of seeing you.
But from what my friend describe,
You're much more hideous than us, though i didn't stated we're like fcking chio or whatever.

Some people just can't keep their big mouth shut , or they are complaining they have too much of saliva ?
KEEP THOSE FCKING NEGATIVE COMMENTS TO YOURSELVES.

Honestly, being an emphere's not an easy job.
YOU HAVE TO KEEP WATCH OF TIME. SCORE . FOULS .
YOU THINK WE HAVE 3 PAIRS OF EYES ?!

WE CAN ACTUALLY SPOT MOST OF THE FOULS ARE ALREADY ENOUGH, WHAT . EXPECT US TO BE 100% PERFECT IN THIS JOB .

IT'S LIKE MY 1ST EXPERIENCE IN DOING THIS, SO DON'T EXPECT TOO MUCH.
HONESTLY IM EVEN SURPRISED I CAN MANAGED IT , DESPITE HOW SOME OF MY FRIENDS KIDDINGLY JOKED WHY AM I EVEN CHOOSED TO BE ONE.

ALL I CAN SAY IS, I'M PROUD OF TODAY WHAT I HAVE DONE.

AND I DON'T WANNA FCKING CARE WHAT YOU PEOPLE HAS GOTTA SAY.

Don't expect people to be that perfect in something when you can't even do it.

2009-05-14T20:39:00.019+08:00

2009-05-13T19:34:00.002+08:00

Back to blogging once exams is over.
Which is like, TOMORROW ! :D

♥

2009-05-05T18:51:00.002+08:00

TODAY , SCHOOL WAS SO DEAD . FULLSTOP.
(HAHA, okay kidding.)

I totally have no idea why i'm so high ._.

Okay, maybe is due to my fever . LOL

My forehead feels hot , I WANT SEE DOCTOR >:

School has been really " GREAT " with 2 hours of maths lesson.
And i managed to rush finish doing 2 science papers , awesome !
Neglecting the part where i got almost all wrong. But, at least i tried ._.
LOL.

SKIP SKIP.

LIJUN'S MOOD TODAY WAS >>>> ._.

Thus i couldn't really get high and go crazy today .
-.- !
She's too stress le :x
Let's see if my mood's good tmr, i shall buy her fav. sweet ^^ !

ENGLISH = FREE PERIOD .

Mr Tan's like totally transparent . HAHAH . I didn't even know he was in the classroom already.
OR i was just too obsessed talking with Nadiah .
HEHE :X .

We're talking about her *ahems* . PRATA AND UMBRELLA / SHASHASHA/CHACHACHA.

Okay, and some porn stuffs. HAHA, SKIP~

Today's ♥ CHINESE EXAM LEH, AND HE FELL ASLEEP.
TMD. LOL

ER, -MIND'S TOTALLY IN A BLANK-

BYE. :D

* This is really a random post *

2009-05-04T16:57:00.029+08:00

Woke up with a piercing pain in abdomen , thus gave school a miss.
Slept all the way till 12noon ;x , woke up with sms from ♥ and others .
Yea i'm fine, just the usual pain though, used to it.
YingYi told me the others were betting whether i pon school again. LOL, how can !? ):
Form teacher called up again :/ . Sure to be reprimanded again tomorrow ._.

Stayed at home the whole day, nothing much.

Till then, ♥

2009-05-03T15:19:00.002+08:00

Sup , i just had my thumb 'sandwhich' in between my window panals, and god fck, IT'S DAMN FREAKING PAIN LA .

A few days ago, or maybe 1 week perhaps, faulty memory of mine..
My grandma fell down while mopping the floor .. and she hit her head on this damn marble floor.
Marble is like god hard, so.. imagine her head flowing with blood ..

When i got back home, i was like hell tired then. She told me about her fall, i saw her wound ..
I was stunned . It was like a big patch , black and red.. with fresh blood flowing still ..
And her clothes got stained and all . Yeada, and i cried after that -.- .

It sudden strucked me that she's gonna go soon .. leaving me and my family .
Sometimes i really really detest when she goes off, " I'm gonna die soon .. " .
And mum would be saying , " 我真的不可以了.. " .
It seriously pains me , oh so i might be an unfilial daughter right now,
But i get irritated when they keep repeating that the whole time !
Arghh .

In my head , i just feel like screaming out loud, " Fck off then, You think i'm enjoying this ?" .
I know i sound rude, yea but so?
I know that mum is feeling too stress, just trying to find someone to confide to..
But i'm not suitable . You're just giving me another 'burden' , that's all.
There more i think about it , the more i will feel even helpless..

Especially when mum and grandma is 2 of a kind , god help .

When i tired to tell you something , either you just brushed it off, or changed topic.
Like when i'm saying , i can't handle this stress .. feel like commiting suicide.
You would just simple say . " Die barh, Let's die together . "
Oh hell ? how am i supposed to react then ?

I know mum's feeling down , she needs my support .

* Right, i just ran to mum arms and give her a good hug. *
LOL.

It feels wonderful hugging her ..
Makes me feel safe once again.

****

I realised this year MYE is totally not like an exam !
I don't have the will to study at all .. Feels like im just taking some sort of CA tests .
Higher chinese paper 2 has been a disaster . I did not finish my compo >:
English paper was soso ~ , Though the paper 2 format was a breeze , Just 2 compre and 1 summary = English Paper 2 ? . WOW .

I love it how they plans the timetable for this year MYE though .
Not all cramp up in 1 week . Makes me feel less stressful .

I encounter some weird incident on Friday , while waiting for CJ again .
I was at the bus-stop , about 7pm.
And this uncle , about in his 50s or 60s ? . He had that sly , 色狼 look on his face -.- .
He was on phone.. and i was pretty bored , so i overheard his conversation.
Firstly i thought he was taking to his child on the phone.. but then till i heard he saying ..

En~

( WTFFFF. SO GROSS. MY MAO IMMEDIATELY STOOD UP.)

His making a soft , gentle sound , trying to act innocent . OMFGGG , PUKE.

AND YET HE KEEP MAKING THAT SOUND OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

WALAO, HIS CONFIRM , 100% FLIRTING !
MOST PROBABLY 中国妹妹 ! HAHAHAH .

And then he said , 我咬你的皮股啊 ~

OMFGOMFG, I ALMOST BURST OUT LAUGHING ON THE SPOT.
HAHAHHA.

So they went off 甜蜜蜜 again , about her cooking for him to eat. Blah blah , some boring stuffs.

AND HE ACTUALLY ASKED HER TO EAT AND DRINK MORE PAPAYA.

SO MY 1ST THOUGHT WAS , " WTF, WANT SHE HAVE DUA NEH AH ?! " .

Btw, i told this story to many many people, including Alex, Mum, CJ , Chrys , Isabel , Yvonne and i dunno who.

BUT I NEVER GET TIRED OF TELLING IT. HAHAH.

***

Woke up at 6am and went for physics class at school till 10am.
Falling asleep , and XINHUI was shouting accross the room that i'm having eyebags.
WALAOOOO ):

BTW, a few days back , she folded me a pinkish red rose , SO SWEET RIGHT.
NOT FORGETTING THAT IT COMES ALONG WITH A LETTER THAT I SHALL NEVER FORGET !
WHICH MADE ME ALMOST CLIMBING OVER THE TABLE AND HURT MY CHIN FOR IT.
LOLLL.

But still, how sweet luh. THANKS LAOLAO <3.

I love the chapter on Forces for Physics ! ^^
FINALLY I MANAGED TO SOLVE A QN INVOLVING PHYSICS. WOOOO ~

So it ended pretty fast luh . Chrys , Lijun and i head down to canteen and wait for the 3Hum.
And then Lijun went off with erica, so me and chrys went up again to camwhore and chit-chat.

I look really unglam in those photos ): !

BAD HAIR DAY.

AND SOOOO , BEL , WZ AND VON WERE FINALLY RELEASED AT 11 !
We went for brunch at Foodcourt .
We're laughing like mad over there, even people don't even dare to come close us.
HAHA.

Overall, Fun :D

Went up to take some pics , and i went home to change while the rest went off.

The 2 bratty kids were at my house again.
ARGHHH , SKIP SKIP.
I FCKING HATE THOSE 2.

Got prepared, went find Cj at the Auntie's house.
Had a chat over there with her husband ..
And he stuffed money into my hands , not like im gonna used it anyway.

Boredom.

So i and Cj head to interchange, Had my late lunch, and we went to the library.
We're walking in circles just to find a place, and we finally settled down at the MALAY CORNER.

Didn't really mug thought, Just prepared notes for Social Studies, WHILE THAT PIG WENT OFF SLEEPING.

Played there till 7 plus, intend to watch ' 17 Again ' but , yea cancelled.
Camwhored like siao, And we almost got chased out by the librarian. OH, BOOO !

Went for a walk, had dinner at Mum's there.
Brought back dinner for grandma, and she came by my house for the taiwan show.

Slacked there about 11pm, melissa made me furious again.
Argh, quarrelled once again, i lost my damn voice.

Things happened pretty fast, and maybe i was freaking tired or what as i only had 4 hours of sleep.. so i just dozed off on bed.

Thanks CJ for making me burst out laughing with her dance moves, and accompanying me whole day . Love chuzx <3.

Pretty lazy to upload pictures, till then.
Bye.

2009-04-11T20:34:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE ! ♥

Went out with Charmaine , LiJun , JianMeng and Sokman on thursday after school to celebrate ahtoot's birthday in advance ! :D
Overall it was fun (: , had our lunch at Dhoby's .
heh, not really good with directions :}

Jianmeng was cutting her god damn steak , damn slow ! >:
She took forever to sliced one teeny weeny size . LOL .

Our tummys' were kinda famished , so we just gobbled up the food , taking some from each's dish.
OH, the services over there ? Not bad , or maybe the waitress were too free, one came over to talk to us , about her trips in some random country 0_0 !?

And she called us FRIENDSHIP . Weirdo o.o ? ~
Lijun and i gave each other the -ohgawd, -faints- look .
HAHA.

OH, i found out Sokman's terrible frightened of BIO.
I know it sounds weird , yea and im talking about one of the 3 Sciences , Biology.
LOL

She just shivers whenever we talk about cutting pig's stomach , fish eyes , so on ..
And at that moment , i was cutting up my bloody steak , soo ..
imagine her face goes > >_< !!

In the end , we had forgotten to camwhore ! ):
Charmaine paid for the meals , ♥!

And i went back for tuition in the night z.z !
I was having a sucky face , so zhenrong tutor kinda was 'gaying' to make me laugh.
He almost made me slapped him a couple of times -.- !

Friday = GOOD FRIDAY .
So NO SCHOOL !

:D

Woked up early , got prepared , went off to Dhoby to meet Chrys,Wanzhen,Yvonne and Isabel.
Headed off to Marina's .

Watched the movie ' Confessions Of A Shopaholic ' .
It was superb :D .
Hilarious , yet touching . Oh, and i almost cried :/

Had our lunch at some sushi outlet .
Oh, we were laughing our heads off there, so the waitress looks pretty annoyed with our laughters . We kinda pissed her off by taking our orders slowly .. but who keeps count anyway ? :D

Wz's and Celine's bowl of ramen was HUGE !

Spent most of our time canwhoring at there, and celine left half wayyy . ):

Went walking around Suntec City , bored , so we went back to Dhoby again .
Wanted to catch another movie , but due to lack of time .. so didn't as planned.
Went walking around, omfggg , we saw xinhui & co.

Btw, something is wrong with XinHui's brain, LOL.
She's addicted to wacking my pigu on and on during school days !
But yea, still loved her cuteness :D

We went for our dinner , i ordered my king prawn and steak again ! Yummy ~ ;x
Guess everyone was tired, so we're restless.
Only i and yvonne were famished.
Btw, the services there sucks, BIG TIME !
I'm giving you this > _l_ .

Fancy you giving us that smirky attitude of yours.
Pathetic.

I'm gonna smear that damn place's name . But i will miss the food there . Argh ~

I was bickering on phone with Cj on and on whether we shall skipped night tuition ,
as we're shag :/
But in the end, i still cabbed my way back and rushed for tuition .
Couldn't really concenrate , and this sec 4 guy came talking to me,

" Hey , your phone's damn cool ! "

" HAHAHHA . yeayea, I KNOW :D "

And then i went off beaming like a retard . LOL

Dead tired, went to bed at about 12 midnight.

Woke up thanks to Mum and Grandma's chats.
Talked my way through , and somehow , Mum actually gave me $50 again ! o_o !
But she still owe's me moneyyyzxz ! :D

Gave CJ morning call, and went down to meet her.
Headed off to tuition again .
Had to keep our god damn mouth shut throughout with Mr Ho's staring,
so we smsed throughout the lessons ~

Went back to get some drinks , and went back home.
Cj gave me an emergency call , so went to bath and went to her house again in 15 mins ._.
At last i know someone who's a tardy queen ! CJ !
Went back my house again for her shoes , and was supposed to go to the interchange.
But , yea , she had forgotten her money , so bid goodbye.

YEA LA, i'm late again :/
Made yingyi waited for me , oops ;x
Kinda in a rush, so we finally bought our tickets to ' Knowing ' .

Yingyi was like going on and on ,
" EH , YOU SURE THIS NOT HORROR HORH ?! "
" Why o.o? YOU SCARED AHH ? :D "
" No la, just that i got a good memory, i will remember the scary images the , FOREVER . "

Walao, what excuses lo. LOLL

The movie was not bad ~ , i was spooked out during the startings -.- !
Damn it, i was really regretting it as i thought it's a horror movie when the movie starts.
But, thank god , no. It's just a movie full of mysterys , and weird incidents -.- ?!
You gotta get your eyes glued to the screen , as it's really hard to figure out the full story if your eyes wander off .
AND, YINGYI WAS GIVING ME HER SCIENTIFIC LOGICS WHEN IM WHINNING ABOUT WHY THE PEOPLE DIE SO TRAGICALLY !? -.-

Oh, and i realised i can be pretty noisy at cinemas . Hee :}

Btw, i hate the ending. IT sucks BIG TIME.

I was expecting the main actor, being a hero , saving the earth from the tragic heat emission.
Yet, they just died ?!
WALAO, completely unexpected duh.

And whyyy did Singapore rained at such time , when i don't want it to !?
Couldn't get our way to Bugis Street , so we decided to go to tampiness and visit the new mall.
Regretted, it's damn crowded, there was no mood at all for me to shop peacefully -.- !

Walked till 7pm + , and had my dinner at there.
Yingyi accompanied me back , thanks :} .

Picnik's being such a bitch z.z !
FYI, it's a program invented by a group of brilliants for photoshop dummys, like me :D

I LOVE THIS PART.

* pouts *
* raise eyebrow, getting suspicious .. *

" NOT MY SUSHI ! "
" ): "

Okay, i'm famished and dead tired from blogging, edit , and uploading the photos.
Goodbye !

BTW,

Many people said im alike in appearances with my sister.
So one day in a car we decided to zilian , bored la ok! -.-
I told her , " Eh, we give 1 act cute pose aimai ? "

HAHAHAH .

Oh, and i wanna clarify .
About my previous post, seems like Lfei had read it.
I thought he was touched la , but then , he kept using this to ' threaten ' me.
LOLL .
Cause his pissed off me calling him "八婆 " .
NEHNEH ~ And i threatened him to make his gf jealous .
OH , IF LFEI'S GF REALLY IS READING THIS,
i mean it as a joke.
Don't take seriously , not Lfei will come and kill me ._.

2009-04-03T22:52:00.002+08:00

I might be closing this damn fcking blog.
Tired of quarrels and fights everyday .
zzzz.

Apparrently i have no idea why i miss this friend so much,
when he abandoned me for his gf.
But still, i miss him alot.

z.z

I miss laughing as i cried , with your lame jokes.
I miss suan-ing you that you're a gay.
I miss when we're both complaining and spamming each other at msn.
I miss showing off what i have done each day though they are just plain boring . Cause it cheers me up when you complain back.
I miss you ' consoling ' me when i'm down.
I miss you web-caming .
I miss the times when i throw tempers at you constantly, But you waited patiently.
I miss you scolding me for not replying your msgs.
I miss you this dear friend of mine.

2009-03-29T19:38:00.004+08:00

Blog's completely dead :/
I'm gonna say this again , i hate sec 3's life .
LOL.

Stress ahhhh !

Btw, i went to the hospital for like 2/3 times in a week !?
Thanks to my gastric. Now, the pain is acting up almost everyday .
:/

Argh, it freaks me out the thought of EXAMS .
Did i mentioned my CA's marks ? God, i only got 1 freaking A1 for my A maths.
And the rest are B4 or C5 . I GOT A D7 FOR PHYSICS ._.

And and ! i have no idea what happened to my dad ,
he got us a new t.v set with sound system and all :o , LIKE WOW !?
And he got me a freaking camera !!!!!
10 mega pixels !.!
Though is not my canon powershot E1 , BUTTTT , i still love it ♥!

AND I GOT MY NEW HANDPHONE AT LAST !
HAHAHAHHAHAHA .

From the oh super laggyyy phone , W910i ,
i got my LG KS360 ! ♥♥♥

chio eh ! ^^
Almost everyone said it looks CUTE .
Except my mum -.- !
She said it was not practical !? ):

Im getting the hang of it for the keypad . :D
And yingyi is laughing at the time im taking to reply 1 pathetic sms >: !
I was supposed to get the icecream phone , But it looks so phony when i see it myself -.- !
Mum wants me get the LG Viewty , but hell no >:
Either LG Cookie or that , and i spotted this babe in the glass cabinet.
YEAA , SO I GOT IT :D
HAHA.

It works fine , camera's good so far.
I hate the Mp3 ._.
Prefer the walkman's though T.T

AND THE MEMORY FOR THE SMS CAPACITY IS LIKE.
GOD DAMN FREAKING SMALL .

But i still love it ):

Dang. i can only change once again next year. LOL

Went out with Cj yesterday , saturday.
Went to bugis, only got a top .
Btw, i'm on a budget ! ):

I need moneyyyxzx ! But i'm lazy to go to work .
Mummy has not been obedient , and did not give me money everyday -.-!

Singapore's weather is freaking hot ._.
I hope it rain's like everyday !? Even better , EVERY MINUTE !

):

Cj asked me to blog about this.
We're on the bus, on the way homee.
I gave up my sit to an old man . HAHAH .
so cj was like sitted between this middle-aged man and the old man.
She was testing my phone, looking through the photos and stuffs.

Maybe it was her expression, i dont know >: !
The 2 uncles were like , lengthening their necks , and looked at my photos !
-.- !?

XiaSuay lehhh ._.
And CJ was laughing her head's off in the bus -.- !
damn youuu ! LOL

So we went off for dinner and back at my house.
Stayed till 11 plus and she went home.
yeadaaaa ~

Oh well, we didn't get to test out my camera :/

Toodles ~

2009-03-12T19:21:00.003+08:00

I'm crying in front of the com, and im nudging mum off not to stare at my eyes.
Fck.
I have no idea what's wrong with me right now, at this moment.
One moment i can be so hyper and smiling all the way, next minute i'm in tears already.

Sec 3 life is terrible, horrible. ARGH, screw it.
I don't understand why the sec 4s' can have a smile on their faces everyday when i see them.
WHEN IM ONLY IN SEC 3 AND I FEEL LIKE DYING EVERY MINUTE.
Tommorow's the day where i'm gonna be so restless.
3 tests in a row, major help needed.
I have studied for chemistry, but i have no faith in it.
A maths would be a hell for me.
History = TOTALLY FAIL !

I have flipped through the book again and again, read it through.
But i still don't get what it's talking about .
Why did i even chose History then ?! -.-
I was still proud enough to tell the others History's a piece of cake, with Hitler.
On the other hand, i'm like struggling with it.
How contradicting ._.

I slept in class today, again.
Feeling so restless, body aching.
The handsome tutor of mine called up again and reprimanded at me for trying to pon tuition again -.-.
So maybe i did scream a little on the phone , i find him annoying for the 1st time.
In my head i was going ' GET OUT OF MY LIFE LA IDIOT. SO STRESSED LIAO ! ' .

But ... i still needa go. Which means i can't study for history. And i'm gonna fail again.
Mum told me not to study if i can't get the damn thing inside my head.
She's like my listening ear for these past few days :O

I'm happy for the break starting next week.
But, it's such a boomer when i knew it's gonna end like , in 1 week ! ._.

The temptation of skipping school got into me again.
But then the thought of 3 tests , teachers spamming calls ..
Oh hell.

Anyway, i really wanna point out something, cause i find it totally unbearable, for me .
Maybe it might seems im just making it seems such a big deal when it's such a small matter in your eyes, but to me , no.
It matters a lot, yea , and i'm hurt -.- .

I can't tolerate the way YOU ditch a friend in need, or maybe when she's crying, and all she wants is just your comfort, and your off laughing with your gf.

Yea, i said it. (:

From your words, it seems like i don't matter to you anymore in your life since you find someone , much better, who can replace.
Yea , bloody hell . My heart was like, sink from the 2oth storey till to the ground. Dead.

You forgot about it , and you could just simply brushed it off, completely ignoring my words.
But to me it matters.
Cause you're an important friend to me, i said it more than once.
And i thought you would remember.
But yea, seems like it's just a ' matter ' towards you.
So why should i carry so much hope in you ?
Doesn't matter right ?

You have completely changed, to a different person.
To a selfish person, who doesn't spare a thought for others.
I thought you were different, who takes time out for a friend in need.
So, im wrong.

Delighted, cause i thought you would cheer me up,
But no, you didn't. In fact i got much angrier that i feel like slapping you right now!
Bloody piece of shit.

I find that every post of mine now's like so depressing -.- .

2009-03-11T21:46:00.002+08:00

I'm here to blog.
I realised i tend to start my blog post with , " HI ! " , "I;m Back ! ".
LMAO.
I know it's retard ._.

Anyway, i have been a really good girl these days,
STUDY STUDY STUDY !

):

Thus, i tend to fall asleep in class, and i got active every minute trying to entertain myself, (:O)
and LiJun, who has been giving me that ' diao ' face of yours. ): !
I hate my timetable ! ARGHHHH . SCREW IT Z!%&^0&98^)!*%^)* .

IT'S LIKE SO FREAKING UNFAIR !!!!!!!!
Other classes get to be release at 12.30 ( which is the EARLIEST ) or even 1.30 pm.
The most is only 2.30pm for two, including the damn LCE which dragged the whole time.

ARGH ARGH. AND I HAVE 3/4 DAYS WHICH END AT 2.30 PM !
WALAOOO.

I feel like not going to school again.
):
But i will be rotting at home, which can be pretty boring.
Thank god next week's the start of Vacation . which means ....

NO SCHOOL FOR 1 WEEK LEH !!! * SCREAMS *

But i have tons of homework , thanks to Ms Goh who has been choking us with lots of maths Ws.

I'm starting to enjoy Mr Tan's english lessons.
It's like, i can finally relax, and maybe even get a nap when he doesn't even care since i'm all the way at the back ^^.

Btw, Stephanie's has been 'annoying' me with her act cute voice nowadays.

Steph : MADELINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !
Me : *turns around* WHAT ?!
Steph : BIMBOOO ~ *in her UNIQUE cutey voice *
Me * _l_ *
Steph : HAHAHHAHA .

Crazy people . BUT ME LIKE ♥.
LOL

Oh yeah, Cj will be attending the same science tuition with meeee :D
But her's on Monday, mine's on Thursday.
Which is like .... totally no point lo !

And she actually said THE TUTOR NOT SHUAI AT ALL !!!
WALAO, break my heart into pieces T.T !

Anyway, she got into an arguement that involved slaps, vulgarities with her mom on this Monday night.. on the way to my house.
So after a bit of persuasion , she finally poured out what ever happened.
):

I can only just say ...
Things will work out fine, if you look on the bright side :D
Not gonna revealed anything here, not she's so gonna kill me when we see each other on friday :O

OHHHH, i had my A maths tution which lasted from 5-10 on tuesday.
Argh ! ._.
I swear my head was gonna burst during the lessons.
WHAT'S UP WITH THE GRAPH THINGY !?!

So complicated. ZZZZZZZZ .

And i told Lijun about the chapter next day, that it's terrible hard.
And she went " ARGHHHH , SHHHH! "
HAHAHAH.

So i broke down that night. :x
I cried like siao under the block.
I couldn't control the tears, and i just cried my lungs out again when mum asked.
Ooops.
The overwhelming stress is totally unbearable.

Today( wednesday ) was damn slow. Time passes so man lo !
Every week, either i pon on wednesday, OR i just keep praying the teachers didn't come for class :O
Cause i can't stand studying like siao till 2.30 without any break.

I totally enjoyed Training today :D
Though it seem's pretty slow, but thanks to the match we played ..
SO FCKING FUN !
I hope the coach would come every training ): !

I have like a Physics test tomorrow, and i have not really study much yet :O
God help ?!
A maths , Chemistry and History tests on Friday.

Screw it.

2009-03-01T17:52:00.002+08:00

Hi, it's me .
Life has been hectic for a while.
Can't keep up with the flow, feeling so tired at the same time.

I detest the life i'm having right now.
I wanna go back to 2008, though not perfect, but much better than now.

My gastric has been acting up again, Gosh, LiJun really gotta get used to my absentee in class :O
Double maths lessons are starting for me soon, which means:

Monday-Training.
Tuesday- 4 hours of A maths.
Wednesday-Training.
Thursday-Science tuition.
Friday-4 hours of E maths.

Tragic. Have not been crying , good sign though.

O level's for higher chinese is starting next week :O
So fast, and yet im unprepared.
Friends have been talking about the Jc's they wanna go to.
But yet, i'm lost for the moment.
I have no idea what the future awaits me, and how am i going to face it.
Taking 1 step at a time, yet in fear of making the wrong mistake.
What's wrong with me.

I'm glad CA's are over, but i totally screwed it.

I feel like crying out, all my troubles, but yet can't.
Once again, bottled up.

I missed you, my friend.

2009-02-23T20:37:00.004+08:00

I have completely forgotten about my blog.
oopsie . >:
I guess i have been just plain busy with stuffs.
OR i'm just really lazy to start a post .
Yea , i am.
:D

Wasn't really looking forward to my birthday at first , the night before.
BUT BUT , I'm really touched by my classmates :D
Thanks for the surprised cake, though i suspected :X , BUT STILL,
MILLION OF THANKS . XOXO .

Thanks for the cards , presents and letters , especially Yvonne's.
I can't believed i cried in class when they were singing me the birthday song :O
I'm really touched and thanks for the birthday wishes.

THOUGHT I STILL HAVE TO DRAG MY FEET FOR TUITION IN THE EVENING.
>:

ANYWAY, CJ IS OFFICIALLY BACK FROM OBS ON 20 FEB . ^^

So kinda hang out with her on the weekends (: , to catch up old times.
AND HELL, she's in love with a guy almost DOUBLE of her age.
Her group instructer , name , GOH ______ .
I saw the picture, and my 1st reaction was,

EEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW . BAD TASTE !

HAHA, sorry ): !
But his seriously , CAN'T MAKE IT .
High socks up to his knees, center parting .
WALAO, D;

School's been terrible so far, with all the tests, and i have completely forgotten what to blog about. Apologises ):

Went for training today . YES. I FINALLY DID.
LOL.
It ended early with dead-tired drills .
Headed to mall with huiwen,wanzhen,pearlyn and nadhirah .
Went for piercings , omfg, i laughed damn hard when huiwen was having her ear pierced.
HAHAHHAAHAH . ;X

Had a talk with huiwen over her love matters, and send her back.

I'm tired. Totally shag.
Will be back, till then.
(:

PS, Happy 1month anniversary . ♥

2009-02-15T15:39:00.002+08:00

Valentine's Day was horrible.

Went out with Chrys , Isabel and Wanzhen .
Maybe you guys were right , i drifted a lot with you peops.
I thought a lot at night , suicide again.

I don't wanna lose you guys, really.
Though it seems that I drifted, since we're different classes and i'm alone w/o any of you.
You guys matter a lot, in my heart, Truly.

I admit i was afraid of you guys, i didn't dared to say much.
And you guys might have thought i don't wanna be with you .
But no, i'm just . .
in fear.

The words you said, etched deeply inside.

2009-02-14T09:23:00.003+08:00

Friday 13th.
Screw it _l_

My day was horrible. I was going mad during the 4 hours tuition.
Damn Hungry, i wonder if my gastric's gonna act up again.
I had a fight with my family, never again, i swear, am i gonna help melissa again.
I could only hide in the room, crying as i sat on the bed.
And this fcking family didn't even bother me.
I wanted to leave, but on the second thought, i don't know where to go.
2009's not a good year for me, tragic.
At that very instant, i felt like cutting myself again .

Still crying,
I thought of Lfei.
But it seems awkward, having not contacting you for a long time.
Yet, thanks again for making me feel better.
A great friend.
And i know you will be reading this. (:

My voice sounds terrible, still sick.
What a day.

Sort of quarrelled with Alex, i doubt we will be celebrating Valentine's then.

Happy Valentine's Day.

Goodbye, till then.

2009-02-12T11:45:00.007+08:00

SUP!
:D

I've been really sick these few days.
Yesterday, i'm down with a fever, cough and flu.
Was sniffing and coughing non-stop yesterday.
What't wrong with the weather man ?! Almost everyone is coughing.

ANYWAY, Everybody came to concern me why i skipped school yesterday . AWWWS ~
I'm touched . (: LiJun missed me too, so i was annoying her during maths lesson with logs.

HEHE.

I hate the new timetable larh ! So annoying .
Especially on wednesday -.- ! The others get to be released at 12.30pm and we're stuck with higher chinese till 2.30 pm ?!

UNFAIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR !@#$&^#$%!@^(&

Higher Mother Tongue Teacher is being such a bitch.
For goodness sake, i'm really sick on tuesday.
So don't kept beating around the corners saying that i pon school ! =.=

" You better don't lie to me, i will check if you passed the mc to your form teacher later. "

?! WAKAO.

At least i didn't get to see her annoying face in the 2nd hour of HCL.

GEEK . GEEK . GEEK .
HE CAME TO RELIEF MY CLASS.
*SCREAMS*

Argh, i was so high at that point of time .
Others said he was not cute , in fact , GROSS.
COME ON LARH ):

His really cute with his adorable face.
LOL.

Wth am i saying . SNAP OUT OF IT MADELINE .

*awwwwww~ *
Couldn't concentrate anymore on my test.
So i kept disiao LiJun . OOPS .

I'm hopeless at chinese , i just check the dictionary for words every 5 minutes ._.
And when lijun asked me for a word, i will go.
" EHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, *STARES IN THE AIR * "

And she will give me the , -OhForgetIt- look.
heee :}

Lessons ended, Went to mall with Yingyi for lunch.
My check up is officially on March . (:
Which, ITS FREAKING LONG LA!!

._.

I was feeling, horrible when i reached home.
Took 5 different pills and went off to bed.

And i woke up at 5 with a splitting pain ._.
So i didn't went to school again :/
I might be cancelling my check up at KK's and going earlier.
Mummy said i would have already died in pain by March.
LOL.

Valentine's Day is like . . . 2 DAYS AWAY .
OMFGGGG .
I haven't prepared prezzies at all for my friends. ):

Tags replied (:

AMANDA ONG SOTONG : lols. amanda and amanda ong are same person so when you reply tag, why bother to seperate? LOL. hahas. anws, takecares~ xDD
Okay, sorry ._. Was a bit blur. thanks (:

CHUNJING:D: MAD!!!hahas:D the warning u give is nt friendly is scaring ok..hahas:D i feel threaten!!!hahas:D cheer up!love ya:D

CJJJ ! LOL. Though i forgot what i said, But, YOU NOOBIE !#@!%
Thanks (: Love Ya. <3>

MADELINE: Xingannnnnnnn nice blogskin!
HEH, Thanks :D

doreen: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH u are 159, omg T.T you know why.. heh-heh.. im 160>< ITS OKAY. I shrunk . LOLL . ANYWAY, SHORTIES RULE ! :D

chrys: maddie, just 面对现实吧 you're 157! LOL Joking la, you grew taller! Last time, then 157~ HeeHEe JOKING HOR!!!! DONT ANGRY AH!
): 157 cute okay ?! LOLL . I won't angry (;

YingYi: Madeline ! This will the one and probably the last time you'll be more fair than me ! Kidding ;x
OH SHUTUP. Let me feel happy for a while. HEYO BLACKIE. LOL

Celine: AHEM i thoght some one tooth ache 1? Still can go online ah? ._. HAHAHA ANW YO MADD! cm back sch soon! D:
LOL. YES . HAHAHHA . SUP MRS MAC ! :D
heh, will (:

LiJun: your apology is accepted! eat more so wont gastricso easy mahs.
I know, (: Thanks :D

doreen: RAW SALMON! omg T.T
YUM YUM ! :D

Shervin: YOU FOUND MY BLOG THEN NEVER LINK ME! LOL. Link please.
HAHAAHAH . ;X Okay, :D

xin hui: hello! link me?
HEYY :D . SURE (;

2009-02-10T14:01:00.010+08:00

I'm back, things had not been going pleasantly for me this time.
I'm down with gastric, once again.
Woke up at about 4am plus with a terrible pain.
Didn't went to school in the end, sorry lijun ):

Slept all the way till 12 noon , with msgs from ♥.

Sometimes i wonder, whether this r/s would really last.
Non believed , i'm starting to get worried too.
As time goes by, i realised i could not do without you.
Waiting, for your msgs every morning , seems to be my habit.

YingYi and Charmaine didn't went to school either.
1 with a tooth ache , another overslept. Rofl

Woke up pretty early in the morning and went to meet CJ at her house.
Got her ready , thanks to her , WE'RE LATE . LOLL .
Went to take bus to E-Hub, k-box .
Sang from 2pm till 7pm plus , Oh god D;

And this particular waiter barged in without knocking (?! )
Seized our drinks into the bag without a word , o_O .

How awkward.

Went to the nearby night market to get cj's food.
I grumbled along the way, i was tired, and my throat hurts badly D;
Everytime i tried to speak, it hurts . Help ?! ):

No photos for the day, extremely busted.

Woke up reluctantly on Monday morning.
Mum almost got us involved in a car accident . Yes, thank god, we're safe :/
Ms Goh bored us with her maths,
I HATE LOGARITHUMS . (?) .

ARGHHH, Sec 3's life is a killer.

Thank god, the teachers for SS and English were absent .
So , we only had 2 hours of maths and 1 hour of physics .
(:

Dad spammed me with phone calls during lessons -.- !
Got released, dad fetched me home.
Went for some praying of our ancestors ._.
Got home at 4, washed up.
Went online and played Audition with yingyi till 10pm. :}
Relatives came to my house for dinner.
I ♥ Sashimi :D

2009-02-07T17:22:00.002+08:00

Firstly,

WELCOME BACK FROM OBS MY DEARESTS !
♥♥♥

1 Week has been a torture without you guys ):

School on friday was awesome ! :D
Didn't had to touch those yucky ropes for scouts stuffs anymore ^^ .
Had captain's ball with the guys till 10.30 am.
WTF, I just realised Chen Han is so freaking tall O_O ?!
3 heads taller than me , imagine imagine ~

):

I'm still stuck at 159cm.
CAN'T GROW TALL ._.

The game was fun, not counting the fact that my team lost to Nadiah's.
JUST BECAUSE THEY GOT CHEN HAN ON THEIR TEAM #@(*(@!$&
>:(

2nd round was hilarious with Chen Han and Jia Qing on our team.
Chen Xiao got freaking mad, almost going bonkers (!) , when Galvin came on our side ;x
Smacking the ball at us -.- ?!
Freakkkk her. Nadiah , Dione and I stood by the side, speechless. LOL

Was laughing till my cheek bones hurt (!) , when ****** bump into **** **** boobs.
LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

TWICE !

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA .

AND HE ACTUALLY BOUNCES OFF , UNBALANCED. ROFL.

okay, i'm mean i know, but who cares.
;x

Game ended, yes we stinks ._.
Went for break, and headed to Ava room 2.
GEEK IS BACK , ! ♥
MUAHAHAHAHHA .

MY LOVER. ROFL.

His wearing red today , argh, couple suit with SUZIE LEH =.= ?!
1 so skinny , 1 so dua.
._.

Suzie came in to check on us, non-stop.

The guys are freaking horny, comparing the size of their dicks in class O_0 !!!
And others were looking at suzie's butt ._.

Sat with JiaHui , Dione and Nadiah.
Commenting on geek's butt T_T !
Hot topic nowadays ! ♥
BUT HIS BUTT REALLY ._. sexy ;x

Class ended at 1pm !
Slacked at canteen with Nadiah ,
I (L) her ipod ):

She has been seducing me non-stop till 3 plus -.- .
Gossips ♥.

When we saw the bus coming in, we just chiong to the main door waiting for their arrival.
Hugged almost everyone , XOXO .
Yvonne's hug was most hilarious . LOL
Got bounced back when we hit each other . HAHAH

I cried ._.
The sight of them really makes me go ... AWWWWWWWWWWWW ~

Yvonne cried a little when she saw me in tears ;x
And MeiYi was saying , AIYOOO ! YOU REALLY CRY AH ?!

LOL.

And the next bus was Chrys , Celine and YingYi .
It was like family reunion , i went around hugging people ;X

Some got really terrible .____________________.
Yvonne's leg was like , half white , half red.
Looks like she was wearing hot red leggings O.O

Headed off to have Pepper Lunch, at 4pm.
I kept my mouth shut during lunch , while they were talking about OBS.
:/

But still thank god , i did not went (:
Heard it was terrible.
Hiking and Kayaking for 5 days 0_0 .

Yvonne told me , " You know horh, when i was doing the activities , i was thinking thank god you were not here, you sure can't tahan de. "

LOLOLLLLLL .
Yea, absolutely right ):
I can't get black . I WANT WHITE WHITE SKIN .
LIKE YINGYI !!!

Went back to take bus with von and yingyi.
I was shouting (?) in the bus at CJ over the phone . LOLOLLL.

In the end, decided to meet CJ at tampiness and skipped tuition .
Went around looking for her ideal phone and my cap.
Didn't get it in the end :/
Talked a lot along the way, and send her back home at 8 plus.

Onlined for a while, and i went back to sleep.
God damn tired.

2009-02-04T18:05:00.002+08:00

I'M BACK :D
Went back to school , HAHA, everybody miss me ;x
YESYES, TQ! IM WELL ALIVE AND KICKING.

Didn't really wanted to go to school, BUT , dear Nadiah kept pressing me,
so i went for today ;x
Thank god i did not went for yesterday , they were supposed to go to old folks home ._.
Imagine me handling old peops,
I can't even communicate . ROFL.

Nadiah misses me ! :D
She was practically hugging me throughout the whole day. LOL
No lessons, just some basic stuffs about camp, coaching by the senior scouts -,- .
Bad tempered people. Swearing NABEIII , FCKKK , CB , every time ._.

Had english composition writing for 2 hours in the Ava room.
Title : Write one occasion when your foolishness causes your friend in deep trouble.

Nadiah kept kaciao me >:(
NO INSPIRATION at all.
So i just scribbled some stuffs about a guy's gf got banged by the car.
LOL, typical,
AND TOTALLY OFF THE MAIN CONCEPT .
I hope it is not include in CA ):

Went to get keys from the office to clean up the classroom.
Thank god i stood outside, SUZIE was inside reprimanding audrey and dione ._.

Cleared up and went to dhoby ghaut with nadiah and poy (?) .
Bought tickets for Inkheart and went to have lunch at Gelare .
I'm officially broke ._.

Inkheart was probably interesting , Not bad .
But thought it would be more adventures ._.

7/10

Had a really bad headache, didn't went for training.
I'm beginning to think about whether to attend school for tomorrow ._.

2009-02-01T09:30:00.002+08:00

You disappointed me.
Empty promises, that's all? To keep me satisfied.
You said you will changed for the better,
So that your parents won't look down on you,
A few days pass, and you remained the same, still.
Were you even serious when you made that promise?
You only care about fun, the present, not the future.

I wonder if this love is worth it.

2009-01-30T22:28:00.002+08:00

My life is all screwed up. ):
Help ?!

ANYWAY,
there's something i would like to share about.
It feels very uncomfortable keeping it inside my heart.
HAHA. Who am i kidding man.

RIGHT, HERE GOES.

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I'M NOT GONNA GO FOR OBS !
*SCREAMS*

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH,
i was stunned when Mrs Ku called me up for some discussion.

I thought she was gonna call me for detention =.= .
BUT, IT TURNED OUT TO BE A VERY VERY GOOD NEWS.

Okay, maybe only for me larh ;x

BUT I'M STILL OVER THE MOON.

Get it ?! it's an idiom.
I wonder did i even used it properly. *SKIPPED*

School has been getting VERY boring.
Oh damn it.

Ms Goh lessons are so ..........................................

BORING.

Since when her lessons have been interesting ? *roll eyes*

GOSH, i'm talking to myself.
*knocks head*

I fell asleep a couple of times during maths.
And i'm starting to lose interest in maths too.

HOW AH ?! ):

I told myself, FOCUS YOU THIS DUMB HEAD.
But another side of me, urges me to SLEEP SLEEP, IT'S ONLY A NAP.
DON'T SO KIASU LA. *chants : SLEEPPPPPP ~ *

HAHA, but i still fell asleep though :x
*bites fingernails*

I'm getting pretty fine with my new classmates.
LOL, it has been already 4 weeks, and i'm still referring them as NEW classmates.
Bobian, I'm slow at almost everything.

BTW, BTW !
I find this part quite hilarious.
I was rushing back to class to change for P.E
Stopped to chat with von a while, RUSHED BACK.
I was gonna ask stephanie why she's not gonna change,
and then i *TURNED AROUND*

I SAW THE GUYS CHANGING RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME .

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, common sight anyway.
HAHAH.

But i gotta admit , **** ** have a really tan and good figure ):

Snap out of it.

SOOOO, when my dear classmates are away for OBS,
WHICH YINGYI HAS REMINDED ME TO MISS THEM , YES I WILL.
* tears in my eyes *

I'm gonna be stuck at school, probably with Nadiah. *rub hands*

OR, i might skip school for 5 days, HAH.

Sleep man, i gotta replenish my beauty sleep somehow.

Today is friday , right .

So i went with Angeline and Yingyi to play badminton.
AFTER ALL, i'm in school team last year,
AND MY SKILLS DROPPED. BADLY.
T.T

I swear i'm gonna seal yingyi's god damn mouth sooner or later.

HAHA.

Anyway, i got into a fight with Angeline in the lift somehow.
Friendly fight.
She sort of messed up my hair,
You know how i react when people come touch my damn fcking hair.

I GO CRAZY.

So i pulled her shirt, yes, we were screaming in the lift.
YingYi was avoiding to get hit.
There was not much space in the lift to run about,
SO you can imagine how Angeline tried to escape from me . ^^

I WANNA GO OUT.
LIKE SATURDAY OR SUNDAY.
JIO ME JIO ME.
LOL.

PS : i DO have a lot to blog about, forgotten though ;x

2009-01-26T22:41:00.001+08:00

I AM SO FED UP OVER AUDITION _l_
Frustrated, can't seem to start the game.
Have been trying for 4 days, ZZZ !
" can't connect to server, please try again later " .
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

2009-01-24T21:35:00.003+08:00

Have been crying non-stop just now.
Can't stand my father and my family anymore.
How you treated me, hitting and scolding me continuously.
DO YOU EVEN CARE WHETHER IM YOUR DAUGHTER ?!

No, maybe you really don't.
You never tried to understand how i feel, not even once.
Constant scoldings and remarks made.

I tried not to hold a grudge on you.
But till now, i can't.

Kept myself in the kitchen, crying and crying.
Grandma just kept annoying me.
Pissed me off with dad's remarks.

Melissa and cj saw me in tears, as he scolded me.
Again, in public, without sparing a thought for me.

It's tough trying to figure out what your thinking.
Hot and Cold every minute.
How am i supposed to predict when your in a good mood or not.

2009-01-24T14:07:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since i blogged.
My mind just froze when i'm about to blog, oh well.

Not sure where to start, thus, this post might be quite messy.
(:

Yesterday was tedious for me ._.
Though there's not much lessons due to CNY celebration,
but i actually had to go for 4hours of maths tuition while others get to enjoy. ):
Wasn't really paying attention to it ;x
Gossiping with Nadiah throughout about her Top 3 List of Hot Guys In Campus.
HAHA, and she got thrown with chewed vegetables from the one guy called Colin (?) .
With the saliva, EEEWWWWWW ?!
It landed on my legs, ARGHHH .
But most on Nadiah's . HHAAH.

The lion dance performance was awesome.
Though some parts i was really gonna dozed off,
But i got impressed.

Was supposed to go with Angeline , CongHao and YinYi to somewhere,
but didn't had the time.
Went to had lunch with Yvonne, Chrys , WanZhen and Isabel instead at pepper lunch.
Saw theresa & co over there.

Yvonne was playing with Bel's furry monkey toy throughout ._.
With sing-along session and dance moves O_O !!
She'e getting cranky up in her head. LOL

Accompanied them to shop around at the mall and headed back home with Von and Bel.
1 particular guy sitted behind just irritates me so much at the bus !

Von got off, and i was late for tuition.

THIS LADY HERE, WONGCHUNJING.
Doesn't have any time management at all =.= !!
I swear i almost smack her on the spot.
Okay, i was fuming with anger when we got there, didn't get scolded (*,*)
But cooled down fast enough when i saw Mr Ho's comical face.

FINALLY, 4 hours gone, PHEWWW.
Headed down to interchange and bought cj's shoes.
Went to find mummy, and kindly enough, she sent us back home.
Dead beat, went online a while and went to bed.

Was texting non-stop , fell asleep . Ooops !
Woke up again at 3 plus and texted back.

Frankly speaking, not looking forward to CNY this year.
Except my angbaos, but i doubt mum will let me keep it, AGAIN ):

Not looking forward to ' Tuan Yuan Fan ' either.

Something is wrong with me, but i can't sense what it is.
Shytie.

Did i mention The girls in my class who are not in pure Lit are super adorable ? :D
Was gossiping non-stop the other day during break.

" You just can't judge a book by it's cover. "

Hilarious, i laughed till my cheeks hurt.

Not really contented with my OBS grouping.
Can i just tell the teacher my chest pain is aching up again and give it a miss ? ):

2009-01-17T18:27:00.002+08:00

HEYO ! :D

I did mention i'm gonna mia for a while, but still ...
can't resist temptation ehs ^^ .

Was supposed to go for maths tuition yesterday night.
BUT this CJ came begging me on the phone to skip ,
and accompany her for dinner ._.
Of course with her sweet talkings, i gave in.
Hah, typical.

AND SHE ACTUALLY WENT OFF WITHOUT ME !?
screw you girl.

Forgave her still, at least i get to watch my taiwan show :D

Woke up early this morning, did some work.
Went to meet CJ and went to give a surprise to mum at work (:
Started to tease her, and i hoped that made her day, :}

Decided not to head for tuition again, and went Cj's house to watch movies.
I'm so not gonna watch ' 1 Missed Call ' ._.
Watched ' apartment 1303 ' ,
kept covering my eyes throughout, almost 3/4 of the movie ;x
Chunyong and his friend were yawning and whining that it was boring and not scary at all.
HELLO ?!
It would be just a typical boring same old movie if there were ghost came popping out of the screen throughout , OK !

tsk ! =.=

Watched ' Bolt ' , cj was caught sleeping ._.
Kinda touching in the end,
omfg, i actually cried for this movie =.= !

Cj's mum came back from work, and made burgers for us (;
Went send Cj off to work, and head back home.

2009-01-16T17:06:00.003+08:00

I have been busy, seldom online.
Or i'm just plain lazy to sign in msn, (:
I'm not that FREE LIKE CHUA YINGYI , ONLINE TILL MIDNIGHT ._.

I have not contact with anyone except for school mates.
whatthehell ._.

Went for science tuition yesterday.
omfg, he's 25 and have not been in a relationship before =.= ?!

" WALAO, YOU SO LAN MEH ?! nvr patuo before . "
" yea lo ~.~ not good to be a relationship anyway. i got my own girl-friends. "

Was teasing him all the way till he can't take it anymore till the end.
" eh, patuo really good meh ? *curious* "

HAHAHA, make me laughed like siao.
I knew he can't tolerate.

Btw, his my tutor, which, i still don't know his name yet ;x
Will try to find out, maybe, or not.
hah.

School's boring , not gonna elaborate.
I only come to school with a smile on my face to see clique.
Or else, i'm thinking about quitting school soon.

Blog might be dead, for a while.

2009-01-12T20:30:00.008+08:00

Remember those times?

Woke up thanks to CJ's sms early in the morning.
Freaking 8am ._.
Bathed, CJ came up, chit chat for a while, surf the internet.
I was doing my homework btw, HAH.

Laughed at the taiwan show till dad woke up ;x

Luo Zhi Xiang ♥♥♥

Can't believe dad called him typical ah beng. HMMPH.
His just jealous of his good looks, yes yes , :D

CJ went back for her stuffs and i went to her house later on.
Waited for this dear lady to get prepared for 2 hours ._.
Was watching ChunYong playing his online game and sleeping =.= .
FINALLY, we left the house at 2pm! ._.

Head down to bugis and started to shop.
I realised i never get tired of bugis, hahs.
I can even memorise the whole place in bugis street :D

Not much sales going on ):
FOX FOX FOX ._.

Cj bought 2 clothings, i got none ! ARGH .

Weather was freaking hot, especially at the traffic lights.
There was this particular cute guy behind me,
we're squeezed like a pack of sardines, mind you.

YES!! , I IMPROVED ON MY ENGLISH, I USED IDIOMS. ROFL.
Okay, back to the point ;3

And his gf was rushing him to moved up, close till almost breathing down my neck.
yea la, his much taller than me, BUT GET THE POINT.

And he replied, i don't want touch the girl's butt la ! Later you ...

omfg, i felt like laughing. -.-'

Right, we're holding our hands together tightly througout, in case got lost.
Not me not me, ;x

Went to Tampines to catch the show ' Red Cliff II ' .
At the main entrance, some concert event was going on ._.
Few groups of people singing chinese new year songs.
AHH, AND THIS GUY SANG PERFECTLY !
Mesmerized.

The show was thrilling, with all the bloody scenes, and dead corpses.
Hah.

Argh, people in the past are so smart, and not forget, violent ._.

Show ended at 8 plus, didn't get my band anyway ):
Dad called up to rush me back for dinner.
Went back home and parted with CJ.

Mum came asking me where had the $200 had gone to.
._.

I'm dead.

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Went for school today, tons of work to be done.
But i still finished it all in class :D
Lessons were boring, except MATHS! ♥
LIJUN, maths can NEVER BE BORING OKAY !
She was complaining to me how tough and annoying it is ._.
Nonesense ! LOL

Thank god, we got Ms Goh, unlike other classes.
Charity with some kind of malay/indian teacher.
Can't understand a thing, right isabel (:

Released at 1.30pm.
ARGHHH, we're seldom released so early, yet i had training.
Can't pon anymore, ):

Had isabel accompanied me till 3pm,
JIAYUN'S JOINING NETBALL ^^.

Training was not tough at all, hah, for me maybe :}
I was assigned to take charge of the Sec 1s.
Total of 23 ._.

They're cute, in a sense.
Can't help laughing with them.
Getting all tense up whether they got into netball and stuffs.

Went back at around 6pm.

The headache's killing me.
._.

2009-01-10T21:40:00.002+08:00

IM SO HAPPY. MADELINE IS SO HAPPY.

ROFL.

Can't tell, will be a surprise for you if you see me in school.

MUAHAHAHAHHHAAH.

But i doubt i can keep it as a secret for long.
OO, I WANNA SAY OUT!
BUT STILL CAN'T.
LOL

Anyway, i went meet cj yesterday for tuition.
We're late, and Mr Ho expected us to pay $1 for every minute, which whould be $20.
I was, *GASPS* WTF ?!?!

Neh, he was actually kidding.
Cheeky fellow for an old man.
LOL

I saw the cute guy again, sitting exact opposite me.
*awwwwwws*

I just find him cute, in his geeky way.
ROFL.
Okay, no one understands it except cj.

Mr ho totally make me annoyed during the last part of tuition.
Was asked to solve a qn which seems totally impossible to solve for me,
and he gave me the
-OH, I KNOW THE ANSWER, BUT I'M NOT GONNA TELL YOU *SMILES* - look.

*roll eyes*

He continued to laugh at me throughout.
What's laughable about that ?!
=.-
Weird oldies.

Accompanied cj for dinner and went back home.

Woke up at freaking 4am, thought was a school day ._.
Went down to bugis and meet isabel and chrys.
Shopped around, spent about $100 plus. ;X
Went to dhoby ghaut for movie, Transporters 3 .
Argh, censored sexual scenes.
LOL.

Saw this really cute movie something about ponyo in the sea, animation .
So we kept singing PONYO PONYO~
Laugh till cheeks hurt.

Isabel's dad can be so stern ._.
Refused to take his call, and came a warning sms from him to confiscate her phone.
LMAO.
She was going EE YER, HAIYO.
DAMN HILARIOUS.

Chill my girl (:
His concerned about you only.

Went back on mrt, and EEEEWWWWWWW.

Got this guy, must be from china.
His totally digging his nose, STANDING BEHIND ME SOMEMORE.
GOD PLEASE. ):
If he dare touched me with his filthy hands , i'm gonna kick his toot for sure.

2009-01-09T15:14:00.002+08:00

Argh, i'm sick man.
I had this unbearable pain since early morning.
Was already outside school, but i chose to go see doctor.
Daddy brought me all the way back to bedok clinic,
Having Gastric and stomach flu.

THE PAIN STILL DOESN'T GO AWAY AFTER CONSUMING THE PILLS.
._.

In fact, much more painful.
Constant vomit , going in and out of the toilet.
Throat's dry, can't talk properly.

And a fever seems to be coming down on me. ==

2009-01-07T19:41:00.002+08:00

My whole week schedule full of tuition.
):

Might be going out with chrys and isabel to town this saturday.
Or maybe with Cj to watch movie on sunday.

I have been so stressed up these few days man !
Finally can take a breath and relax during the weekends.
And back to school on monday again . Zzzz

Sec 3's life is terrible.
I can't believed ken told me it piece of a cake last time. =.=
That's because his smart, i'm not. Argh.

Books are heavy and freaking thick this year.
even just 1 particular chemistry textbook already made my bag heavy like hell.
Talk about carrying books to school everyday ?!
I rather put them under my desk.
Thank god i'm not in Unity.
Thanks to some idiot person in class, (told by yingyi) who set the stupid rules that they hardly ever follow,
They are not allowed to put books under their desks ._.
And Yingyi's was like strong with her bag, weight a ton ! o.o

And who would set a class rule not to speak vulgarities ?!
Please la, almost everyone in the class will do so.
Retard.

Lessons were tedious, Almost fell asleep.
Maths, social studies, chemistry are a disaster.

Wanzhen and Yvonne are back from camp :D
Went to have lunch with Lijun,Isabel,Conghao,Yingyi,Chrys,Yvonne,Wanzhen.
And went to teach von,wz and bel maths at the foodcourt.
YINGYI NVR HELP ! >:(

Almost every day of the week my class ends at 2.30pm man !!!
._.

Fck it.

2009-01-06T17:35:00.003+08:00

School had been much better, but not as good, compared with 2Hum'08.
Had been crying these few days, stressed ._.
Don't wanna trouble mum, it's tough for her working 15 hours everyday.
So i lied to her, i'm fine, when apparently, i'm not D; .

I managed to stay awake during class not like last year.
Dozing off every lessons.
I'm gonna study hard, get well for my results!

woops, can't believed that i said it ._.

My motivation to stay attentive in class is getting worse.
Walao, i just realise lijun more lazy then me during monday. HAHA
Left all her books under table, non to revised back home.
tskk tskk , ~
bad girl, not like me . ~.~
LOL.

Higher chinese lessons would be in 3 Hum, with the usuals.
which means ....

I CAN SEE CLIQUE AGAIN! ♥♥♥

Hcl teacher would not be teaching for 3days.
Pathetic, we got some sort of test to do for the 2 hours lesson T_T
YINGYI ! I NEVER COPY THE WORK HORH ! LOL

Laughed like siao throughout lesson with chrys and Lijun.
Isabel , yingyi , celine so hardworking ;x
Was texting angeline throughout though she was just 2 rows right beside me.
LOL.
She seem sad with Eunice , ;x
Maybe cause eunice is busy doing hw and ignored her. ROFLS.

she miss me she miss me this crazy girl ~
LOL.

I saw Yvonne and Wanzhen taking care of the sec 1s.
Nowadays, sec 1 like to bully me ):
I met yvonne by chance leading the 1 Unity yesterday.
AND 1 boy pop out from nowhere in the class kept calling me passer-by ._. ?!
AND CALLED ME STUPID !!! >:(

Can't regonise his face, but his short. HAHA.

*roll eyes*
all sec 1 are short right btw ?!
*smacks*

OH, i had lunch with isabel yesterday at Mac's.
CHEER UP ! :D
you can always come next door find me.
AND KEEP THAT SPIRIT IN YOUR HEART !

Went lunch with Yingyi and went back home.

If your wondering why my post is in such a mess,
as i was about to continue to type about my day, and then I sudden remembered some things,
so typed typed,
and it turn out like this ;x

2009-01-03T10:11:00.002+08:00

My eyes are puffy red, thanks to crying for the whole night yesterday.
I tried to control my tears and sadness, EVERYTHING in school.
But i can't take it anymore.

I miss everything in o7/08.

Especially clique ! (L).
Angeline,Celine,Chrys,Isabel,CongHao,Yvonne,Wanzhen.

):

And i landed in a fcking shyt class with none of them by my side.
Not saying lijun and charmaine are not good, But ,
i have very very deep feelings for them, ;x

Feels awkward without gossiping with the bunch of girls,
The laughter of Isabel's and horny talks with Celine,
Yvonne's naggings and slapping me,
fighting with angeline,CongHao's lectures,
Chrys jokes, Wanzhen's laughter.

I can continue going on saying many stuffs about them,
but this post would be very wordy then.

Mummy's worried about me going on like this.
Okay, maybe she will bring me to a doctor to check on me 0.o

I want the time to rewind.
♥

2009-01-02T20:07:00.003+08:00

" How was 1st day of school ? "
" Not bad, neither is it good. on the verge of crying. "

Was not kidding about the crying part. >_<
Thanks dad for speeding throughout the whole ride, i was early for school @.@
I saw audrey, still the same, prettyyy :}
I saw yingyi , chrys , celine , isabel , yvonne , wanzhen , wanting , conghao , dione , pearlyn ,
angeline , charmaine , lijun at canteen.

ARGH, i miss clique.
i really really miss being with them.
How stupid i was, never to cherished the times with them before.
Till now, i start to regret.
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

I was particularly whinning to yingyi how much i missed them ):
She must be irritated and im acting like a primary 1 student.
hah.

BUT I REALLY REALLY MISS THEM.

OKAY SHUTUP! IM BEING ANNOYING. =.=

Humility's and Charity's next to mine. Wooo.
Another teacher mistaken me as the new sec 1 student again =.= !

" EHEH, you which sec 1 class ? "
" *blink eyes* "
I not sec 1 !!!! == , I'M SEC 3 !!! "
" I LOOK LIKE SEC 1 MEH ?! "
" YEA YOU LOOK LIKE ! "
" -no comment- "

=.=!

Class interaction was BORING.
I still don't know what's the form teacher's name yet. ;3
Mrs ku became our co-form teacher.
And crap, caught me for hair, this morning assembly :/

I don't know anyone in the class, except lijun, charmaine and nadiah (somethinglikethat).
And i don't think i wanna know any of the rest.
Some look -IDONTGIVEADAMNBEINGFRIENDSWITHYOU- ,
others look -SORRYTOOSHYTOMAKEFRIENDSLE-

._.

Didn't had recess ._.
suaku teacher, totally forgotten about it.
Was almost half dead and asleep listening to her long talks about respect.
zzzz.
Still in primary school ehs? I had that talk for how many years already. ==

Head to the hall, I SAW YVONNE , ISABEL , WANZHEN !
So i ran towards intention to give a hug to whomever,
and yvonne gave me a slap.
._.
So i slapped her back.
ROFL.

OBS @.@ ?!?!
yuckkkk.

Went for lunch LUNCH LUNCHHHHH !

Starving to death.

But in the end, i didn't ate much, yes, gonna vomit.

Went back with yingyi while others went back school.

H.G.A !
i saw a cute cute guy.
Looked at each other eyes for 5 secs.
and then gone.
-.-!

2008-12-30T21:30:00.002+08:00

WEEEEE, back from mia.
Don't really bother to update this blog ._.
But, im bored.
Can't really remember what happened.

I went kbox with cj someday.
Yes, she got lost searching for the damn toilet.
HAH, got shuai ger show her they way twice ._.
Not jealous.ROFL.

Apparently, why people like to cheat some young innocent girls' money ?!
YES, they didnt allowed me to use my membership card, oh wtf.
and it cost $26 per plus with just 2 cups of drinks, for just 3 hours -.-!!
DAMN YOU.

EEK, i called us young innocent girls.
HAHA.

And i went to watch Twilight the other day.
Can't really rmbr the details.
Remember isabel ,
BELLY DANCE WILL DO FOR YOU.
LOL

I watched Bedtime Stories with isabel yesterday.
Kinda boring during the start, sweet in the end.
Still think the main actor is old for the lady D;
Went around Bugis and Tampiness.
HAH, isabel , fyi.
You missed your chance of seeing him just that little bit at century square :}

Met up with Wanting mama and yingyi at Bishan.
wtf, i was early for half an hour @.@
i walked up and down continuously at the mrt looking like a retard ._.
Heh, bored and called Lfei up.

Yingyi surprised me. Could'nt help laughing ;x
SORRY. didn't mean it.
Once in a blue moon eh, xD

I saw mama !
AND, yy, i KNOW WHAT'S A SPAGGETTI STRIP ._.

Went walking around, efffff,
my feet hurts.
DROPPED OFF NAIL !?!?!
Yuck.

Couldn't help yelling H.G.A to them ;x
Can't control my happiness.
ROFL.

I SAW HIM 4 TIMES MAN. FATE .
LOL

Took a long time at fox choosing the clothes.
DEHHH, its isabel and wanting :}
Hestitated whether on buying the jumper ._.
Temptation ~ with Isabel's words.
I BOUGHT IT.
ARGH.

Money money come to me ._.

Went to have my lunch at Mac's.
NO SEDUCTION ISABEL !
AND REMEMBER OUR BET ^^.
Im so gonna win it, with your confession to Kelvin.
xD

ahem, we went bought lingeries for Wanting.

Nothing to be ashamed of. ;3
Lol, the sales lady came asking whether we wanna try out the new bras ._.

2008-12-25T16:33:00.004+08:00

Drats, i feel like crying my lungs out.

Despite the fact that i told myself continuously,that you were a jerk,
i still love you.
I had it going, smoothly, till that very day.
You broke my heart.
I teared down right at that very moment.
I didn't dare to breathe a word.
I cried and cried, till my eyes were swollen.
Yet i had to pretend nothing happened.
Since then, we drifted.
No phone calls, no messages.
I knew you had a girl out there.
Somehow, my heart keeps telling me i still can't forget you.
No matter how i tried.
By all means, i tried and tried to forget.
It ended, without even a bitter goodbye.

And you came back, once or twice, talking to me.
Behaving coldly towards me, You were not at least ashamed of your actions.
How was i supposed to react?
I replied coldly, I didn't want you to realise how i feel towards you.
Till then, slowly, i realised you do not understand me at all.

I thought by burying the love i had for you deep inside.
It will go off, eventually.
Yet, it returned.

You're still a jerk to me, though.

Merry Christmas, ♥

2008-12-21T17:33:00.001+08:00

I tend to wake up super early these few days ._.
8am plus, goshhhhh.
Isabel would be busy doing her stuffs at a time like this. LOL

Mummy's gonna start work soon.
Which means, she won't have the time to watch me whole day.
*YEAAAAAAAAAAA.*
But i will still miss spending time with her :}

Went to audi for a while. Thanks to my newly keyboard ..
I can't play properly ._.

Went down to meet up with cj.
Yes, as usual, SHE'S LATE. hah.

Weather was HOT HOT HOT.
Finally went aboard the bus and went fortuition.
Still late for an hour though ;3

Cj wrote some UNREALISTIC STUFFS on the board about me ._.
How dare she !?!?!
So i went up to draw about ...
ahem* MF *.
I guess Mdm Goh saw it, oops ;x
Don't really mean it. NOT.
HAHAH.

Had our lunch at the usual place.
Bumped into Mdm Goh 3 times in a row ._.
SUAY.

I saw a guy touching his gf's butt every minute -,-

Went back to interchange, and went to bugis.
Cj was sleeping almost throughout the 1 hour bus journey -,-
PIG PIG PIG.

:D

Intended to watch ' twilight ' (!) .
But our dear lady doesn't feel like watching );
However, she accompanied me to shop the whole afternoon , carrying my stuffs :D
ahah, tqtq loves.~

Apparently I went into the cubical specialized for the handicapped, as i really find it a waste of time waiting at the ladies.

THIS AUNTIE, came knocking into my cubical -'-
Fed up, i went to slam the door open, and saw her children beside her.
I doubt they need to use the toilet urgently either.
All had a smile on their face.

wth, i went in only for 2 mins and she came banging the door for what.
I DON'T PEE THAT FAST LA AUNTIE.

She actually scolded me somemore ?!
DAMN YOU.

Tired from walking street to street and went back.
EH, i gave up my sit to an elderly! *beams*

Went back at about 6 plus and slack at the blk downstairs.
We saw the pervert again !!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAH.

Nothing better to do, so we went to stalk him.
Took some video of him doing some stretching and showing off his 'sexy' butt O_O ?!?!
HAH.

Bored, so we went around walking again.
We sat at the tall tall chair , okay i don't really know how to describe -,-
Helped cj to make up,
apparently pretty hard as her's is * SPECIAL CASE *
So she had to close her eyes for the liquid to dry,
like a blind girl.
And went around touching O_O

2008-12-19T21:54:00.003+08:00

YES YES,
I GOT MY NEW KEYBOARD THANKS TO DEAREST DADDY ! ♥

Fcking fed up when i realise there's a problem with my keyboard yesterday night -.- !
The key pad for letter "Q" , "W" , "E" , "R" , "T" AND "Y" was spoilt ._.
and then , i pressed some other keys like "K" , "L" ..
came out some rubbish , " LKJYQ" .
whatthehell.

hehe, so daddy came back asap with my new one today ! :D

I went for my science tuition yesterday night, again :3
Kinda forgot the time, so tutor's mum actually came up to check me up ;x
I made him repeating the same sentences over and over again for 1 and a half hour.
HAHA.
As i still could not get a clue on wth he is talking , or i actually forgot what he said every min :x

HOW DARE HE DOUBT THAT I GOT 80 ++ MARKS FOR MY MATHS!!!

);

yeada yeada, he send me home again.

p/s. AND I'M NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM , TQ VERY MUCH !

Went for training today ._.
Tiring.
But had permission for early dismiss anyway. HAH :D

Went to look for cj at around 4pm and went to 108.
Gossips and some heart to heart talk ♥
Slacked till around 7 plus and went back home.

Found out cj's maid got some lung infection thingy.
POOR THING MAN.
i really feel pity for her.
She seem so nice la -.- , that time when she came my house to do housework.

WHO IN THE WORLD WOULD DO HER OWN MASTER'S CLOSE FRIEND HOUSWORK FOR FREE OF CHARGE.

Her lo ._.

But my mum still gave her angbao ~ haha.

And she's really uber cute, watched me play audition, and watched taiwan dramas with cj.
And she's totally in love with Arron from the feilunhai !
SHOCKING.
LOL

reply of tags :D

isabel : LOL, TQ ! YESSSSSSS!!!
doreen : HAH, my mum wants me to. LOL, ! your crazy over that show larh ! (x
CELINE : YO MRS MAC ! :D ehhh, NO. LOL
isabel : -.- , your not the only one who said that.
Melissa : LOL, retarddddddd.
Amanda : --LOVEBITEx3 .
Wanzhen : BOO WANNIEE ! ~ :3
isabel : laughs, OKAY :D
!# Madeline. <3> heyyyyy! :D
CELINE : YO. uh, I ALSO MISS YOU ! );
isabel : LOL, totally forgot how to play it. Like about when i was pri 2 ?
zomg, many years ok ?! 7 YEARS. LOL

2008-12-18T22:37:00.005+08:00
CCB PISSED OFF MAN.
-'-
KEYB0ARD HAVE PROBLEM.

2008-12-16T15:05:00.002+08:00
Melissa's in Hospital with mummy.
And her operation is a success ! ♥
Thank God, amen.

I'm kinda sick of this skin already ._.
Maybe i will change, or maybe i wont.
Above sentence was really crappy, and so is this post.
Bobian, really very sian stuck at home =.=.

Back to audition alreadyyyyy ~
Just earned 2million dens within 2-3 hours.
SHOIK AHHHH ~

And this fcking guy kan bian wo in audi -'-

With a pathetic score of 190k ++ still expect to pass the fam requirements of 800k .
STILL DARE TO SCOLD ME @(*!()&#$z(%^*@$%&^@$
" You ownself also cannot get 800k marh , "
" How to test me "

WAKAO. DULAN ALREADY.
At least i got a score of 790K ++ unlike you this worthless shit thingy !!!!!!
In the 1st place already reminded YOU that im not the tester, helping a friend.
COCK EYE EH SMLJ.
I'm gonna scold you like mad if i meet you once again !!!!!!!

FUCK YOU MAN.

2008-12-13T23:10:00.002+08:00
I'm gonna blog about today despite how fcking tired i am.

I AM SO DETERMINED NOT TO MAKE THIS BLOG DEAD !
*insert proudly smile*

Honestly, I DOUBT there's sucha phrase called, a PROUDLY SMILE.

BUT YEA LA, at least get the idea of what i wanna express ._.

I went for english tuition lehhhhhhhh ~ *gives smirk smile*

People might be wondering how come i seem to have tons of tuitions ?!
But yes, sadly to say, I HAVE A LOT LO. I REPEAT MAN .

A LOT.

I have been changing my tutors continously throughout the whole year ._.
And i'm left with Mr Ho for maths ,
i'm so in love with him so im not gonna leave him anyway. :D
Btw, his a freaking old man. HAH

And Mdm Goh for english. Not much to comment about.
Keep her mouth damn shut and has a freaking obsession of laughing out for no reason ?!?!
-.-!

AND AND , I CAN'T FORGET MY DEAR NEWLY SCIENCE TUTOR WHICH I MIGHT HAVE A CRUSH ON HIM, NAHHHS, KIDDING .

P.s / I don't really know his name -.-
Zhen rong or something like that ? Sounds so decent mannzxzxzxz !

Okay, back to point.

Left tution with cj and mummy came pick us up with others.
I was feeling so sucky at that moment ._.
I was so close to go for kbox yet i'm ending up to go to wild wild wet !
Bloody shyttttt.
Still, we changed and played till around 6 plus.
BTW I REALLY WANT TO COMMENT ABOUT THIS YOUNG GIRL.
SMALL BUILD, SO SHORT SOMEMORE . TOOK LIKE ALMOST 45 MINUTES TO BATH !!!!!!!!!

._.

I remember the incident during last year swimming programme.
Fed up with this particular GIRL taking own sweet time in the cubical, when all of us are rushing for assembly larh!
Buay tahan, banged on the door and shouted, screamed for her.
Eventually she came out, STILL DAO ME SOMEMORE !
=.=

Regretted not pulling her long thick hair, ); like a bunch of twigs.
I should have made her trip with her damn face landed on the spongy hole thingy. HAH

AND THENNNNNN, went to Kfc for dinner and kinda had a ' ktv singing session ' in the car ;x
I can't believe a boy like cy watch taiwan dramas and HSM ._.

forgot what to type anymore, tired tired tired tired.

btw, TATTOOO SO HOT LA.
LOL

2008-12-12T22:49:00.002+08:00
Pretty obvious enough,
i change the blogskin, and yes i wasted 2 hours editing it =.= !

I Had my 1st encounter with my science tutor yesterday night :D
Pretty good larh, cause the tutor was in his twenties, doing master degree leh !
Most importantly,

HIS FCKING HANDSOME .

HAHAHA, and i mean it. He looks decent (^,^)
Got muscles seh !!!
Not that my eyes were on his arms throughout ._. , but his arms keep moving marh~
SOOO, nan mian will notice dao ( "." )

But sadly, I'm almost as tall as him, which means his around 160 plus cm ~
Apparently, yea la SHORT T.T

I found out something during the 2 hours.
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I forgot almost all that i had learnt during science for like ....... 5 years !!!!!!
Siasuayyyyyyy.
Almost every 5 minutes, i need him to explain what he taught again ._.

And he would keep giving me the -are you sure you know- look over and over again.
I could only 傻笑 back to him :3
Cause i have no idea what to talk about either ._.

An awkward of silence during the 1st part.
And i could so tell he was also nervous la ! HAHAHA .
Uber uber cute when he talks and blames himself for saying wrong stuffs ~.~

(shyt, im getting crazy over him x.x)
LOL.

But we kinda relaxed during the later part.
I was grumbling throughout with the boring chapters ;o

Tutor : okay, we finished this part le :D
M : YEAAAAA~ *got excited* FINISH LIAO CAN GO HOME LE ?!
Tutor : -roll eyes- , *laugh* , Xiao jie, we haven't finish the WHOLE chapter yet ._.
M : *grumbles*
Tutor : I still think your slow somemore lorh -.-
M : =.=!
M : * I still think i very fast liao lo -.- , butt aching like siao.*
Tutor : *continues to teach pretending not to hear.*

He kinda torture me throughout the lesson ._.
BUT BUT, He send me home afterwards , so i'm not gonna blame him~ :D

2008-12-10T13:23:00.002+08:00
I'M BACK TO BLOGGING !

LOL, I miss a lot of people, yes ALOT.

I'm waiting for someone to come online and accompany me ._.

ANYWAY, i cried during training today ._.
So embarrassing @,@ ,
in front of 30 plus people ? :3~
Really really cannot tolerate the pain i had, so i kept crying non-stop , on and on -.-!
Thanks for the concern people, truly appreciated.
HuiWen thought i was really gonna to faint anytime =.=
But if im gonna faint, i will make sure she's gonna attend to me 24 hours! :D

And i might be going back for check up,
Possibly, i might need to change cca, which the 1st thing that came to my mind was,
CO !!!!

tata, don't feel like blogging anymoreeee.

2008-12-04T16:55:00.002+08:00
I guess i was really tired, so i immediately dozed off and slept all the way till 11am.
Mummy and daddy went patuo again ._.
But mum just called up to check up on me and told me her date was pretty unsuccessful, haha
And she was staring into the sky admiring the beautiful clouds due to boredom.
What an unromantic dad i have, all about work work work.

Whole body was aching from last night till now,
and even much worse,
Chest pain and kinda hard to breathe.
I don't wanna go kk hospital again -.- , waste of moneyyy.

Wanzhen left for taiwan at 12 noon, Bon Voyage! ♥

And fingers cross for Isabel's appeal, good luckk.

2008-12-03T23:02:00.003+08:00
ACTUALLY I DIDN'T INTEND TO UPDATE. BUT BUT
LOON HUI WEN SPECIALLY TOLD ME SHE WILL READ,
SO BEING A KIND SOUL , *insert smiles*
IM GONNA BLOG ABOUT TODAY .
:D

-I just realised my 1st sentence seemed to be in broken english, oh... WHO CARES ANYWAY. -

I woke up at about 7am :O So i guessed i had only 6 hours of sleep.
seee see, i sacrificed my beauty sleep for training -.- !!
pearlyn missed me too much alrdy , especially huiwen. HAHAHAHA .
And then she started crapping with her lame jokes, yesyes, in order to welcome me back! :D
She came up with much more 'leng xiao hua' .

How touching can she be, -tears drop-

I realised i'm being very sarcastic to huiwen. HAHA, sorry didn't mean it.
Da ren bu ji xiao ren guo :x

1 word to describe the coach-
MACHO.

and extremely stern ._.

But the fact that she change the routine of 15 rounds to some other exercises jumping up and down from the staircase,
I'M REALLY REALLY GONNA SO-CALLED-ENJOY TRAINING.

At least i won't start to feel giddy and have breathing difficulties again, for now la i hope ;x

Million thanks to the others who helped me to prevent getting a scolding from Mrs Ku due to lack of attendance! ♥
But i did not end up in the hospital for 1 week till so serious, a bit unbelievable though.

*PS, CHUAYINGYI JUST INFORMED ME HER KEYBOARD'S WORKING.
cause she's currently using the hello kitty keyboard which she detests most.
HAHAHAHA.
I'M SO HAPPY FOR HER, LIKE FINALLY. *

The whole training seems pretty tough, but fun, for like the 1st time during training!
I kept telling angeline and huiwen it was fun fun fun !
So i guessed their pretty fed up with me, HAH.

And along the way to hm, loonhuiwen was continuously telling me her jokes -.- !
I almost felt like taking the bottle to hit her . LOL
YES YOU HW, I WAS TOO KIND TO YOU SO I DIDN'T HIT K ! :D

Went with mummy and mel to eat, was walking halfway along the 2nd storey,
and isabel,wanzhen,yvonne,chrys were sudden behind me.
Spooked me up, -.-

Parted with wanzhen and we all headed to dhoby ghaut to search for their outfit.

yeada yeada, kinda forget where we went after that :x

The last stop seemed to be Marina Square.
AND I SAW MY DEAREST BABY EVER, CANON POWERSHOT E1 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I swear im gonna get that, even if i have to steal or whatever shyt.
I'm getting crazy over that camera ._.

- totally kidding about the stealing part.Once bitten, twice shy. -

I guessed all of us were really tired after walking for the whole day.
So they got what they wanted, von got her dear shoes.
I got nothing ._.

CANONNNNN POWERSHOT E1 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
♥♥♥

I will totally by all means try to beg my parents for it.
Or if someone would be so kind to buy for me...
:D

AND AND, we saw a lady wearing G-String.
*Gasps*

Actually, it's not a big deal , but, really nan de yi jian.
HAHA.

EHHHH, we saw a shuai ger and i had a totally weird reaction at that point of time.
._.

Isabel finally got her handphone !

TOO EXHAUSTED TO CONTINUE AND BLOG ANYMORE.

2008-12-02T16:44:00.002+08:00
I'm sick of getting beaten and slapped by you every single day.
Enough of your naggings, cause i'm sick of that.
You don't understand me, and you will never will.
What a family i have.

2008-11-30T17:22:00.039+08:00
Remember the old times we had ?

How we get to know each other in 1Hum'07 .
From perfect strangers till close buddies?
Remember the usual table we sat during break time?
Just right, for the 8 of us.
And soon we had some misunderstandings along the way,
We started to fall apart, backstabbing, rumours..
One left, and came back again.
But, we're the same, just like before.

The 2 hope fellow who trying to step yi ge at the playground.
10 cent guy, remember?
How we tried to make fun of him, and yet in the end i even lend him money ._.

Finally a decent class photo and dear old Mr Ong's hand had to ruin it -.- .

Where we went to clark quay to celebrate Celine's birthday.
And And ! The Mac shirt we bought, and the Mac bag yvonne gave.
I still can remember celine's ji dong de reaction :D
*slams the table continuously while laughing non-stop * hah !

CHRYSIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !
:D
I WILL NOT forget that i went to watch the movie _____________ with you.
shyt, cause i really forgot the title :x

¬.¬

When we went to support the others for the Hi musical.
And yvonne's -cannotmakeit- gown ? ;x
kidding uh!
With the company of SOMEONE'S muscial ***** .

The day finally angeline joins us at vivo, *SCREAMS*
when we actually trick her that we paid for her the ticket ;x

MURAL PAINTING.

I'm so gonna forget the few days we spent at there.
How much effort we put in. YES WE WITHOUT HITOMI , TQ ! ^^
yesyes, I'm the one who fix that damaged eye which so totally cmi !
*beams*
(though it's hopeless, but much better than hitomi's. )

MARINA SQUARE(?)

okayeee, 1st incident i will nvr forget,
the walk-in-yet-left-after-placing order- incident.
D;
especially with a group of eyes watching us -.-! Totally humiliating ¬

AND AND, K-BOXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX !
*SCREAMS*

Singout.♥

I still got the image of the Sec 3 guy from st Gab's singing , *SOLO* in my head ;x
what's the namee uh .....
YES, NICHOLAS !!!!!!!!!!!!

Hoh, and the fact that i got lost ONCE AGAIN -.-
Had to make the others to come and look for me despite yvonne's haven't even ate her lunch yet.
;x
So terribly sorry!
YESYES, and quoted by isabel, i'm gonna get punished ?! ._.

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I'm freaking bored la so decided a post with pictures, (finally)

I WANNA PLAY MAJIONG . Or whatever they spells it.
I'm addicted to the game of majiong in mummy's hp ,
but i really wanna play the real thingy -.-!

MONEEEYYYYYYYYYY . $_$

credits to chrysillia :D
-she edited most of the pics-

2008-11-30T15:19:00.002+08:00
I'm so gonna knock my head later.
It's getting useless, especially my brain.

Something unpleasant happened yesterday night,
Don't really intend to talk about it, cause i'm not really involved in this matter..
But still being so kpo, i managed to get a few juicy details about it.

-nothing worth being proud about though-

You have been giving troubles to this family, maybe or not, you might not realise.
Or you just planned to not know all about it.
Your a smart guy, you know how she felt, the tears she shed for you.
And you did not turn over a new leaf.
Forget all about the past, how cruelly you treated cj and others.
Have you spared a thought for them, at all?
It seems fun, hitting others till they bleed, and you laughing, feeling pleased with what you have done.
And not even feeling guilty at all.
They gave you a chance, not once, but many.
Yet you took it for granted, making the same mistakes over and over again.
But she did not give up despite how outsiders reprimanded her for being foolish.
Instead she stood on her ground, believing you would change.
Without any sign of complaints and all for what she has done for you.

Were you contented ?
No, in fact you started to get even more greedy than we could imagine.
I was right, this is you, you would never change back to the innocent child we once knew.
Even no matter how much she effort she put in just for you,
You still remained unmoved.

I once hated you, for how you came into my family.
Because of you, my parents end up quarreling all day long, almost going for a divorce.
Because of you, the once peaceful family, turns out to be so complicated with all the fights going on.
Because of you, i turned to that girl who decided to get her revenge on your own sis.

Despite how the others believed in you,
you turn out to be the same.

You will not give up, if you do not get what you want.
So is this it? To end up with a broken family who were by your side, then.
That's what you wanted from the start, when you started with all those selfish acts of yours.

Honestly, i really hope you were dead then.

2008-11-28T16:50:00.012+08:00
OMFG OMFG ,

I ♥ CHINA PHONE.

DAMN FREAKING CHIO ):

I just came back from the airport after fetching my dear old grandma.
I miss her wrinkled face so much. haha, kidding though.
I'm glad she enjoyed her 2 weeks of holiday at 'Hai nan dao' with the company of her friends.
In the end she came back with ' da bao xiao bao ' , wine some more ._.

ANDDDDDD, THE MOST IMPORTANT PART IS ......

ah jie bought mummy a china phone );

My first impression of china phones were cheapskate, old , not that advanced ._.
BUT ORH, THE MOMENT I OPENED THE BOX .
I WAS LIKE ,

*WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA*

It look so freaking gorgeous !!!!!!
No kidding man.
Something like the hp below.

- Without the hello kitty part -
And it's not totally in pink!!!!
The dark pink part in the above pic would be in silky white colour.

I was pretty shocked it's actually a touch screen phone !!!!!

SO COOL RIGHT.

I have got a sudden urge to swap my W910i phone with mummy's .
._.

And there are many songs already in the phone, not oldies, but liu xing ge qu lehhh !!!
NOT BAD RIGHT . China's keeping up with the trend man.

And the sound is pretty clear though, surprisingly...

You can even insert 2 sim cards in the handphone.
WOW :O

I can't believe i'm like advertising for china phone.
hah.

But i had a hard time trying to switch on the hp -.-.
Couldn't find the damn button ....

The instruction menu is in chinese !*"£&$Z*!"^%
I'm gonna figure it out how to operate this thingy man.

I'm so in love with the above phone already.

2008-11-28T00:16:00.004+08:00
Its 12.16 am right now ...
and im not feeling sleepy yet. Or not.
hmms... *day dreams*

Tomorrow's training. God, my 2 weeks of MC so fast gone liao lorh ! ):
Helllll man, heard that the coach is super super fierce and terrifying.
._.

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I wonder if she's as muscular as this lady ._.
Possible though.

I regretted not taking the 2 months MC when i see the doctor -.- !
(your so dumb madelineee.....)

I REALLY REALLY WANT TO GO ON A HOLIDAY TRIP.

Taiwan - i doubt so .... There goes my dream of seeing luo zhi xiang ):
D:
Japan - Fat Hope.

I rather rot myself at home to death than go to China ._.
I still can't believe my mum had mentioned to me, to sent me off to china to surprise ah ma.
-.-?!

I know all the crap about being filial and stuffs especially when she's getting old and possibility that she might passed away.
But, the word of China gives me the creeps.
China makes me think of prostitutes and lao ti ko.
(Watched too much of drama series ...)
The moment i closed my eyes and think about china.
Scenarios of those 'ji yuan' will show up in my mind.
lol, really watched too much of 'gu dai' shows already.

And what am i supposed to do all the way at China ?!?!
Especially 'Hainan dao' . I might even meet Mr Ho over there ._.
Can't imagine seeing him again even after weeks of torturing during maths tuition..
Speaking of maths tuition .. I still have stacks of hw left down there .
Oh shyt.

Btw, went for english tuition yesterday with cj.
After 1 month of skipping tution and continuous calls from the teacher,
i went for it, reluctantly though, BUT i managed to pull cj along. hee xD

SO.... there were only 2 guys up there who seems to come from china i suppose due to their accent.

The moment we sat down, we started talking about the taiwan drama ' HotShot '.
OF COURSE THOUGH THE OTHER ACTORS ARE VERY VERY HANDSOME ESPECIALLY JERRY ,
I'm still faithful to luo zhi xiang ♥
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. His really very cute in the show.
I can't believe daddy call him ah beng -.-!
I bet his jealous due to his daughter getting so over into him and not her own dad.
HAH.

Jealousy kills man, i totally believed that.

Something funny happened during the lesson.
There was like this insect, bee i guess...
And i guess it's plain stupid or what, keep flying in and out trying to find its way out.
Yet, despite Mdm Goh opened the door and windows,

IT'S STILL FLYING AROUND IN THE ROOM, GIVING ME NO PEACE AT ALL.

And one of the guys, pretty tall and muscular,
was screaming like a freaking gay man, hopping around looking for a safe place to hide ._.

omfg, and both of us were laughing like siao.

and then Mdm Goh said something which make us laughed like crazy again.

' Big size does not gives any advantages after all .'

SOOOO, do not judge a book by it's cover. (;

yada yada, Old queen nagging behind my back again -.-.
Will update about the Singout asap with pictures!

2008-11-25T22:39:00.002+08:00
I thought i promised myself to forget you,
And here it goes again.

I intended to visit the deaf auntie at first with cj today ...
but ' bei ren fang ge zi ' .
and im so not gonna explain what it means cause im in such a fcking bad mood right now.

BECAUSE I FOUND OUT SOMETHING WHICH MAKES ME SO WANNA SCREAM.

like , 5 minutes ago.

Conclusion .
Guys are such hypocrites.

I do really have a lot to rant about but i find it pointless.
Some things are just meant to be kept as a secret.

Went to shop around with cj .
YES YES, SHE FINALLY GOT HER DAY OFF .

and i seriously wonder why she's so despo in getting her contact lense ._.
I find it troublesome to put on and take it off,
especially when your a klutz , being clumsy and all.
HAHA, im talking about you ah cj.

But million thanks for accompanying me to search for my stuffs ♥
got my heels and hoodie, and i really want that bag larhhhhhhh ):

AND AND, I realised there's $60 in my wallet.
WOOO.

2008-11-24T23:47:00.002+08:00
I'm gonna do my best to make this blog not look so dead ...... yet.

Yesterday, (23rd November) was my dear bernice birthday (:
Happy belated birthday uhs ,

And today would be,
WanZhen's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ♥ !

I seriously forgotten what i did these few days D;
BUT BUT ...

I do remember i went to Kbox with cj,auntie,melissa and mummy SOME DAY .
Of course i do feel kinda awkward going to kbox with 2 ladies with some serious age gap ._.
Didn't know my mum can be so kai fang de lorh ._.
Started to take the remote and choose the songs, those 80's and 90's .

I can't imagine if my dad was there, singing along with my mum for duet :O
Speechless man.
The rest of us will be stoning over there already.

AND I JUST REMEMBERED WHAT I DID YESTERDAY .

Meet up with relatives to celebrate bernice's birthday at my house.

Something made me feel unpleasant, or maybe pissed off.
So my attitude was ........
:o

Mood swings? Perhaps. So chatted with lfei over phone to cool down.
I was shouting throughout the whole conversation ;x
*slaps myself*
ZHU YI XING XIANGGGG AH .

AHAH, bynes texted me thinking why i turned so quiet and weird ._.
i remember it was somehow like ....
' why you so quiet standing in a corner blah blah '
LOL.

And im gonna end here, before my dad has the chance to scream at me.

ps/. my whole family is getting violent ?!?!?!?!?!

2008-11-21T00:00:00.002+08:00
I have no idea why i decided to blog when i don't have the fcking mood to do so.
Hell larh, it really makes my blood boil when people keep irritating you when you clearly shows that you have no interest in what the person is talking.

Thick skin? hmms, maybe.

I'm only left with $3 plus in my handphone ._.
How pathetic.

Mummy seems like she cried not long ago, and i pretended i didn't saw that.
yea la,sure confirm something about me, needless to say. tskkk

I've got 1 week off from physical training, no comment.
I've got serious injuries thanks to training.
And i might need to change my cca if my condition worsens ._.

I'm gonna say it out, for like the last time.
i miss you.

-random post.-

2008-11-18T18:01:00.004+08:00
Just came back from the polyclinic with mum.
i wonder is good or bad ._.
mummy thought i had high blood pleasure -.- , please larhhh .
Appointment was actually going to be on the 23rd December ,
but freaking long, and mummy is worried damn sick ,
so I'm gonna to the AnE there at KK hospital tomorrow D;

wish me luck.

2008-11-17T20:49:00.002+08:00
Some things are meant to be kept as a secret.

For some reason, and i seriously don't understand why.
i have difficulties breathing and chest pain these few days.
and yes, I'm down with a fever thanks to training in the rain.
._.

2008-11-12T21:07:00.003+08:00
I can't believe your such a coward D;
Looks can be deceiving , how true indeed.
What's that? you hate 2 timers?
woa, but yet you are .
_l_
And if your really gonna be so hum, don't dare to face me.
i reckon you go jump down from the building.
Still,
guys are just the same.
HAHA , yourafckingidoitasshole.

**
went to isabel's house on tuesday and met chrys,yvonne and wanzhen.
Kinda webcam with jowin all the way in chicago.
hilarious ._. when we're trying to hide from the webcam.
AND AND , i seriously want to see his room mate sleeping D:
we measured . ______________________________ .
And then we went to watch horror movies, Cinderella and apartment 1303.
i was practically hugging yvonne throughout , arms around her shoulders.
HAHA , okay , maybe the other way round :o
and i think isabel or wanzhen was stepping on my hair );
jing xia guo du -.- . LMAO
or maybe i was the one screaming the loudest :X

browsed through some pictures of the sec 2s' :}
and i totally forgot what we did after that ._.
messing up hair-dos and stuffs i guess ?

**

i had almost only 6 hours of sleep today ._.
how pathetic, i dragged myself out of the bed at 7am .
yes, 7AM ?! SO FREAKING EARLY DE LORH.
i bet none had wake up so early before ! :X

yea la, thanks to mummy , i need to run freaking 28 rounds -.- !
5 warm up rounds, 15 as usual , 5 for late coming , ( TRAFFIC JAM £"(&z%$"^£ ) ,
3 for long nails.

D;

But i had pearlyn and angeline to accompany for 10 rounds.
i find walking is so much easier and faster than running ?!?!
Serious, i ran 3 rounds with pearlyn , i was panting like crazy.
I walked 7 rounds with angeline, pluss a bit of jogging . YES WE DID RUN .
time passes so much faster !
or maybe is because we were chatting till so engrossed that we forgot the time :O ?

And i was half dead man during the 1st part of the training .

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I only knew i was having difficulties panting , complete exhaustion , blurred vision .
body aching !
-.-!

and i came back home , with plenty of blisters , and end up limping (?!)

ps./ ISABEL LEFT FOR TAIWAN THIS MORNING 8AM .
SADLY, I CANT SEND HER OFF, I DOUBT I WILL ANYWAY :O HEH, kidding :X
I'm so gonna miss her man ):

2008-11-11T11:15:00.002+08:00
Your an ass.
And im such a fool to believe you.

i can't find anyone to talk to ._.
I guess their too busy with their lives and worrying about appeal .
i can't even vent out my anger and yet bottled it all up.
fck.

2008-11-10T21:30:00.002+08:00
Can i blame god for everything ?
I seriously don't understand why i deserve all these.
Was it retribution ?
family is falling apart,
mum's fallen ill, badly.
Daily quarrels and fights with family.
Giving me the cold shoulder despite how i tried to care.
stress from dad.
Some idiotic friendship stuffs.
I wanna leave, like right now.

and i'm being such a bitch every minute and then.

2008-11-10T13:12:00.003+08:00
I'm gonna start on a touchy post. hehe

Remember when we 1st step into 1Hum'07 ?
The 1st friend i made was Dione , followed by HuiMin. ( i know,yucks? but so.)
I find myself rather idiotic and innocent, -pukes- back then.
Sadly, i drifted apart with Dione during the start of this year.
I remembered how i always went to her house and played.
Her oh-so-vintage-retro-warm- house , makes me feel like I'm right at home.
Her mum who greeted me with a smile always,
and a million apologises for spilling white glue at your keyboard :/

How we hide inside your room, surfing the net, gossiping like no body's business.
When you always tease me, and i pretended to be angry , all those fond memories ?
But your now always with Erica, and we drifted apart tremendously.
But you still took the initiative to talk to me, with that lovely smile you got.
I guess, now we're gonna be in different classes next year,
i just wanna wish you all the best in whatever you do ♥

--

I had a deep impression when i 1st started getting to know Yvonne.
Von, remember how i pleaded you NOT TO TELL MS TEO I FORGOT DO MY JOURNAL ?
And you laughed, telling me to finish it quickly before i hand up to you.
And then you were so bored right at the back ,
*i remembered surrounding you were all boys back then
and you don't really had a very good impression in them*

So you came right in front to 'disiao' me , LOL.
And then that's how we started to become closer and closer.
Frankly, when i 1st know you. I thought you were pretty fierce and stern :x
But in the end, found out you're a VERY FRIENDLY AND KIND PERSON .
(:
Among the others, i quarreled with you the most , sadly to say ;x
Over some small matters , or maybe even Michael -roll eyes-
But we managed to patch up soon enough.
I'm sorry that i scolded you a bitch one time :x
WHICH WAS VERY LONG AGO, AND I KNOW YOU'RE NOT THAT XIAO QI DE. ^^

Thanks for your advices when i was facing some difficulties along the way .
Though i rarely heed your advices and you scolded me :x
But still , a big thank you.
& fyi, i REALLY DO listen and remember your words and get it in my head .
Your like a mum to me and the others ,
but your not that old larh , thought we always tease you being an auntie :x

We feel secure and safe with you by our side, *i guess for me only*
And you made me realise what a failure i am in being a daughter .
hah, so I'm complimenting your a really good and filial daughter.
:D

Remember the pact we made in 2007 ?
If i started to scold vulgarities , your gonna give me a big slap.
If you started to lose control and get crazy, I'm gonna slap you back.
i will remember (:

--

I kinda forgot how i get to actually know chrysillia ,
but she told me that i took the initiative to come talk to her during camp . haiks haiks .
Firstly , i think you will be a great mama when you give birth man !
If I'm gonna have babies, which i hope don't -.- .
Your so gonna be the god ma or the nanny .
:D

- and i totally forgot what i wanna type , -.- ! -

sorryyy );

--

I think I'm gonna summarized it up , much easier.
I find that we get to together was fate ,
and i hope it will continue as years goes by.
We had all those fun throughout the 2 years ,
despite we met some problems along the way.
We had quarrels and fights , thought almost we can't even be friends.
But we patched up.
Till then, i still wanna say,
without you guys, being in HIHS is really gonna be a disaster for me.
So you guys really matter a lot in my heart, though i did not say it out.
i find typing's easier to express out what i feel better than talking ._.
Even if we do actually do not like any in the clique,
but we're still a clique.
We've been through thick and thins , (lol, getting long-winded here.)
WE LAUGHED TOGETHER , CRIED TOGETHER .
All the fun , how we ton through the night, having heart to heart talks.

Enough with all the stuff.
And i just wanna say,
I LOVE YOU GUYS A LOT.
♥♥♥

-woo, done . i said it out, like finally.

2008-11-09T16:39:00.001+08:00
Im not gonna trust anyone anymore.
not even my closest.

I lost a couple of friends thanks to my weird temper.
Some really close to me...
And yet our friendship is broken thanks to just 1 fight .
We didn't spoke for almost , a year .
From closest friends to completely strangers.
why?

Sometimes, its really hard to figure out,
what the other party is thinking.
I started to assume everything , slowly , that it was not my fault and yet all yours.
Anger starts to get the hang out of me.
I start to shout, throw temper at you.

I guess all i wanted to say was,
I'm sorry.

ps. im refering to different people .

2008-11-09T13:08:00.003+08:00
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

I hate family outings .

2008-11-07T22:30:00.001+08:00
I'm disappointed in every guy i know.

that's all for now.
:D

2008-11-07T12:58:00.001+08:00
omfg ,
i managed to convince mummy to go talk to the principle.
Now mum says there is no hope for me to go into 3 unity .
And she wants me to take triple science ._.

*fingers cross*

2008-11-07T11:50:00.002+08:00
I'm kinda disappointed with my class ._.
3 Sincerity ? It doesn't seem so bad actually .
BUT I STILL HATE IT .

I only have LiJun to accompany me .
I WANNA GO UNITY £(!^$&^%$&!"!"&!£"%$

WTF . Now there is not even a single art class for me to go to.
i rather go to an art class than 3 sin -.-.
Shorty ass teacher told me no art class for next year due to lack of people .
omfg , if only i knew , I SURE MAKE ART CLASS MY FIRST CHOICE .

AND SHE ACTUALLY SAID THOSE GOT INTO 3 UNITY AND 3 SIN IS BY LUCK.
SUAY SUAY , I GOT INTO 3 SIN AND NOT 3 UNITY ?!

SO HITOMI GOT INTO 3 UNITY IS BY WHAT ?
SAI QIAN TO THE SCHOOL IS IT.
WTF, THEN I SHOULD HAVE GIVE ALL MY MONEY TO THE SCHOOL ALRDY.
ALL MY SAVINGS ALSO CAN.
BOOTLICKER.

AND PLEASE DONT TELL ME BECAUSE SHE PUT TRIPLE SCIENCE AS 1ST CHOICE WHEN SHE KNEW SHE CANNOT MAKE IT.
TEACHER SEE SHE SEEMS TO BE VERY DETERMINED AND HARDWORKING.
SO ALLOW HER IN 3 UNITY.

WALAOO. WTF IS THIS ?!
HER LEVEL SO LOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
90 PLUS.
I GOT 34 LEI !"(*£"!*^z$!^%!
FOR HEAVEN SAKE.
I CAN GO INTO TRIPLE SCIENCE AND YET I DIDNT CHOOSE .
NOW THEY DROP ME INTO 3 SIN.
WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

THEN WHY DO WE STUDY SO HARD FOR.
LEVEL POSITION ALSO NO USE .
BY LUCK AH YOU TELL ME.
FINE , IM SUAY LO.

EVEN MUM ALSO DONT WANT ME APPEAL ._.
BE CONTENTED WITH WHAT YOU HAVE GIRL.
BLOODY SHYT.

2008-11-03T17:42:00.002+08:00
I'M SOOOOOOOO EXCITED FOR CHALET !
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

CAN'T WAIT CAN'T WAIT .
1 MORE DAY MAN .
ARGH, FEELS LIKE 1 YEAR TO ME -.- !!!

FINALLY I CAN DON'T FACE MY FAMILY FOR 3 DAYS LEH !
SOOOO HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

am i being a retard over here ?
cause i really think i am, like RIGHT NOW.

BUT I AM REALLY VERY EXCITED .
I FEEL LIKE JUMPING AROUND THE ROOM.
I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS.

2008-11-01T20:23:00.002+08:00
It has been a freaking boring day today for me ._.
NO ONE JIO ME OUT ): ): ):

okay larh, actually have :/
But yea , LAZY and freaking NO MOOD .

Quarreled with dad today.
HURH HURH , i couldn't stand his attitude of talking to me.
Bloody hell , early morning have to spoil my mood .
i was at first like this , :D
then turn to this , >:(

I hate it when parents start to assume EVERYTHING before trying to get the facts right.
oh nooooooo , so who is it to blame ?
OF COURSE THE ELDEST SIBLING LA ,
WHICH IS MEMEMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

And i can't stand it when mummies start to get so bimbotic and start to 'talk' about you when you are just fucking right behind her ?!
WOW , that's what my mum does .
Speaking in a dialect of Hokkien , WHICH , i can hardly speak . But hey, i still understand.
Aiya, i know your stress up over stuffs , want me to be understanding .
Hey , i tried okay ?

And don't ever use the term ' YOU ALL ORH ' when something she has done went wrong.
Please la, ITS HER . ONLY .

Get's me fck up when you said that.

I can't believe i even cried a few hours for this .
Unbelievable.

I bet i look freaking idiotic crying with eyes swell up , swollen red at the back of the car.
With some puzzled uncle or aunties driving behind.
HA!

You know what made my day better when i finally decided to get home?

Lfei made me laugh about his story on
'THE LOST UNDERWEAR AND SMEXY G-STRING'.

hehe , i got the whole conversation over here, come ask for it if anyone interested.
But apologises, almost 3/4 of the conver i was laughing throughout.
(:

Soooooo....
whole family went out, with only me at home?
parents go malaysia patuo ._.
ah po go have friendly gathering with her friends , gambling ._.
( that's the benefits of an old lady, enjoyment ! :/)
melissa go patuo also ._.
LOL, i kinda think the guy is cute :}
NO I'M KIDDING. Their ten man , god damn it.
ah jie went patuo also , and haven't come back ._.
Gosh, she's really good at flirting de lorh .

And a Malay wedding is being held downstairs.
AWWWS , SO SWEET.
The guy must be freaking rich de lo .
Hold such a grand wedding ._.
*ENVY*

Did i mention I'm kinda into Malay guys previously ? :}

But their singing downstairs .......................
no comment.
Especially when 1 young girl , i reckon ?
was singing such a high pitch song ,
and i thought my ear drums were gonna burst ._.
I'm not kidding man.

****

Cj came to my house with her mum early on right after her work .
To deliver my dinner .
SO SWEET RIGHT ?!
I FEEL SO TOUCHED . *getting emotional*

That's the reason i didn't bash her up when she threw her smelly socks , which almost land on my face -.- !

oh , She's sleeping soundly like a baby now , right on my sofa.
Of course, still in her smelly work outfit , but yea . forget that gross part.
:D

2008-10-30T23:42:00.002+08:00
omgzxzxzx, i almost forgot to mention something about my dearest friend's birthday,
which is today.

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY YOU ASS PIG ! :D

I LURRBBXX EEUU LOTXX LEHZX MUAIIZX FRIENDXZXZX .

(ah, i can be freaking high right now,)
MY AUDI HAS BEEN DOWNLOADED TILL 99% !!!!!!!! ^^.

2008-10-30T23:11:00.003+08:00
psk, I'm super pissed off right now.
by 3 people, 3 freaking bunch of idoits.

thanks to netball training, my whole body is aching , badly ):
I have difficulties bending my knees , -.-!
i supposed i made mummy's life difficult today, oh shaiks .
having her to drive me around the whole day ,
from bedok to hougang , and almost from woodbridge hospital :/

haik haik , so sorry mum . xoxo

went to meet up with chrys, isabel, wanzhen and yingyi .
celine cannot come due to her hp went bonkers ):

holy mama , i wasn't late at all. HOHO .
chatted with wz and yy a little up at her house ,
omfg omfg, her brother freaking tall de.
180 plus cm tall leh !!!!!!!!!!
0__0

wapiang , i really think taller than me by 2 heads , shshshsh , super short then =.= .
i was like , oh my freaking god , thought i saw a giant ._.
*mouth drops open*

i can't even get a proper view of his face, yea la im short la , diam diam !
i miss auding with cyy , );
see how badly i miss her, i even mia from audition because of her D:
wanzhen was even showing us her collection of barbie dolls in the storeroom . 0.0
Thanks to boredom.

went down to play badminton with wz and yy while waiting for chrys and bel.
OHH OHH ! It has been damn long since i touched dao badminton since i quit :/
teamed up with bel V.S chrys & yy.
OLALA , WE WON :D:D:D:D

Spent most of the time pumping that freaking bike with bel and wz upstairs .
i like her neighbour , so friendly, nowadays seldom see this kind of
friendlylooking-helpful-don'tmindwastingtimeoverabunchofgirls- AUNTIES .
♥

Unlike mine , tskkkkk.
1 crazy mad woman from mental hospital who cannot even be control by her husband.

wanzhen and chrys managed to learn riding a bike! ^^
of course marh, thanks to me and yy's coaching . LOL kidding ;x
I still cannot get the hang of playing table tennis -.- !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
played with yy table tennis as though it is badminton ._.

end at around 7pm plus , accompanied bel at the bus stop.
mummy came to fetch me, thanks once again :x
and i end up with eating my take-away dinner in the car.
how pathetic ._.

***

AUDITON IS REALLY GETTING ME SO !"*£&$*_!^%z^*%

2008-10-29T13:11:00.002+08:00
I wonder how long has he been gone ?
going to about 2 years i guess.
fyi , I'm talking about someone very important to 1 humility' 08.
brings up some of the memories back then?
ah yes. continuing ...

I miss 1Hum a lot !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!♥
When we were so innocent back then, fooling around in class all day.
MISS GOH , HONG LAO SHI ): , MR LEOW , MS TEO .

Regretted not cherishing the times we had in class.
How i used to complain with so much work given by teachers , especially hong lao shi (!) .
How we cursed the teachers to be absent for the lessons , ( oh gawdddd.)
i supposed i was the most evil one , cursing teachers to fall down , land in hospital , and many many more ! :/

Though it was pretty ******* , ( bwahs, i dunno what word to use).
i had fun,joy and laughter in 1Hum/2Hum '08.
It was the best memories i ever had, and I'm gonna remember that.

I remember we had pretty much fights and conflicts in those 2 years ,
psk, i remembering quarreling with darius :/ ,
made me qi dao cry until both eyes turn bloody red ):
I miss the sitting arrangements badly in 2007.
GOSSIP GOSSIP /♥.

I miss laughing at cao mei gang de lame jokes , especially weilong and darius :/
I miss ms teo crapping and laughter during English class.
I miss Hong Lao Shi de tight fit clothes , muscular body . ( HAHA , JK .)
I miss watching those movies in class during Chinese class.
I miss copying notes till our hand almost break down.
I miss ms goh's lectures and her maths lesson.
I miss fooling around with angel during lessons :/
I miss gossiping with clique! ♥♥♥

I MISS EVERYTHING IN 1HUM/2HUM.

psk , im getting emotional every minute.

2008-10-27T17:34:00.004+08:00
You made me feel that I'm not part of this clique anymore.

You can be chattering with me happily the next, and backstabbing me the next.
Is that really true friends?
For all i know, you might be pretending to be nice with me, yet under your sweet smile,
your cursing me to the core.
who knows? That's how devilicious a girl's heart can be.
I didn't say i have no flaws , but neither do you, in fact no one does.
Sometimes, just a few words, or even how you posted it,
makes me feel weird and left out .

I really cannot stand hypocrites (!).
If you don't like me, don't try to pretend that nothing is wrong between us.
Cause from what i see, i don't think you even purely care about me.
OR that your just so busy to care.
It might seem small to some people, that im making a big deal out of it.
But, no.
In fact, i had been having this feeling since a few weeks back then.
Gossip about me all you want then if you find me crazy or even fake,
who's being a real bitch here ? ha.

It's still a blog you know, to blog out how people really feel.
No offence by the way.
You made me do it, despite how i tolerate.

****

I hate it when people just always think they are in the right , and never goes wrong.
how crappy is that.
Its the holidays . The days where we have been waiting for so long.
But yet i am stuck with some bullshit training for 20 days told by angeline,
3 days of tuition per week w/o CJ , THANKS TO HER WORK.
Im dying of boredom );
I wanna go overseas ,
yet with the fact that im facing serious family problems here.
I doubt that im gonna have a pleasant holiday this year.

***

It sucks to know that when im needed for something , then you will call me.
So what am i to you again ?
A dog perhaps , or maybe even worse.
With not a single phone call from you the past few weeks.
You seem like you had vanished from this world.
A habit of yours eh?
Gone in a few months , back again giving me a glimpse of hope that we would back again.
And then poof , not a news of you since.
Since you like the dissapearing act so much , why don't you be a magician. Ha.
You matter a lot to me, yes till now i admit.
Im gonna remember you , because of the fact that you had been a big fat jerk who goes around flirting .

:D

I'm glad i made the right choice not going with you to pool today.

2008-10-25T10:21:00.004+08:00
So much had happened , in just one single night.
I couldn't do anything at all to help.
But to cry like a weakling all night long.
mummy, if by chance you get to read this,
I'm really sorry for being an unfilial daughter for this 14 years.
I wasn't there for you when you need someone to confide to.
I kept giving you troubles all day long.
I did not take good care of melissa as i promised to.
I did not treat your naggings and words seriously.
I took you for granted.
You trusted me, yet i have been lying to you for so long.
You thought i was mature enough to know what was happening,
yet all i could was to break down in front of you.
I didn't get to help you.
I'm really sorry for all these.
If there really is a divorce coming ,
I want you to know, i will still choose you.
This family has been perfect once, i hope it is again.
No matter what you have been going through and needed someone,
i will be there.
I'm sorry for being a coward then, who refused to face the problems and push it to you.
I thought you were good with dealing all these problematic stuffs ,
Despite all the stress, you still can take it.
However, it wasn't.
You're strong on the outside,
yet emotionally weak on the inside.
I take after you, you said once.
You gave me all the advices based on your experience.
I can see the effort you have been putting through to maintain this family thing.
You're really a wonderful mum.
If there is a next life,
i hope to be your daughter again.
But this time, i will be a perfect one in your eyes.

**
I miss 2Humility a lot.
especially clique.
I hope to say sorry to you guys face to face yet i don't have the guts.
I wasn't a good friend.
Giving you guys troubles daily.
I'm sorry.

2008-10-20T17:55:00.005+08:00
I'm feeling all lost,empty.
It sudden all came to me.
You matter a lot to me, even if it does not seems to you.
I don't want to lose you.

2008-10-19T21:13:00.005+08:00
It makes me feel pissed off by your actions throughout the whole day.
The fact that you just dumped us , makes me feel like my blood is boiling that very minute.
Maybe we aren't really that close after all .
Maybe i'm not really that mad about this matter .
But the truth is , it makes me feel that this friendship can be so superficial.

- ps , i really do have a lot to say today .
It doesn't really feels good to bottle up my own feelings after all.-

Firstly , i have serious doubts on the choice of guys.
ps, as in some people , for example , ahjie :/
Getting all smitten with that kind of guy .
i'm not trying to be a slut or what , discriminating people or something.
but its REALLY THE TRUTH WHAT .
:/

If there is this guy , A . kiddly-looking , average income .
, average looking .
But , humorous , filial , caring & loving .

& B . smartly dressed up , well-combed hair . suave looking , a filthy rich ' shao ye 'who can provide you ANYTHING .
maybe adding in with 6 pacs , and muscular hands .
*day-dreaming*
But , stubborn , easily fed-up and flare temper , self centered.

Who would you choose to be your life-long partner ? A or B ?

Of course , A !!!!!!!!!!

guys who you are getting married to , cnt be so handsome .
later kana snatch by bitches , wa si cham cham liao.
With a broken marriage , its like ur life is half dead.
okay, maybe i'm behaving like so kiasu , but its the fact !
With money , looks , and career . A guy sure tends to be greedy for others.
And then a pretty lenglui came ,
BOOMBAA.
Say goodbye to ur ATM machine with ever-flowing cash already .
That's why most couples are getting divorced nowadays . tsk tsk .

Does looks really matter a lot in women's eyes compared to the character ?
What about deep inside ?
With good lucks , it only lasts temporary .
Soon , one's face will get wrinkled up , with all those lines .
Gone , are those fair and smooth skin.
But one's interior appearance will not change.

hee. im getting more and more engrossed in this topic right this minute.
So what i can say is , not everyone is perfect.
You can't get whatever you want in this world.
So accept who you are , be satisfied .
Compared to those people suffering like in Africa.
We can be so much fortunate.

crap , i really can jump from one topic to another . *bangs head*

***

It takes a long time to know who is your true friend , always by your side.

Does a friend actually back stabs you behind your back in front of others ,
without you knowing it?
Is a person who speaks ill of you every minute and then ,
and looks down on you , a true friend ?
A true friend will be there for you , going through all the ups and downs in life.
A true friend who actually will do something for you, who doesn't bother about getting any credit or reward.
One who keeps your darkest secrets , without revealing ?

I do hope there would be a person who could be like this.

ps /. i gotta get to the dentist , like so right now !!!!
my toot hurts , freaking hell.
god damn it.

2008-10-16T18:55:00.002+08:00

The thought of losing my closed ones.

mind is totally in a blank right now .
the thought of choosing the subjects creeps me.

tags replied .
bel : eh , no eh. ahah , thank for compliment.
Celine : :D
chrys : heyyy .(:
bel : your welcome(:
amanda---EMOING : hi.
CHUNJING :D : haha okays. same to you.
!# Madeline. <3>
Celine : yoyo Mrs Mac :D

2008-10-14T17:53:00.002+08:00
It's tough putting up a smile always in front of you.

i can't believe i actually cried today in front of classmates :/
When i had been going around telling others that it is so not worth it to cry for exams.
Blame all on my big mouth for saying that -.- .
I cried partly due to the pathetic result i had recieved for HCL .
Yet , is cause i felt dissapointed and i did not fufil the expectations my dad had for me.
i screwed everything up .

But it's no point crying over spilt milk .
What's done is done , no point blaming yourself for it over and over again .
This damn paper is so not gonna let me remain sad for the rest of my life.
Instead of sitting there , crying endlessly , pondering on why the mistakes are made .
Why not do something about it .
My life is SO NOT GONNA end thanks to this damn eoy , right ?
Work hard and strive for the next year exams then !
but of course , 说到就要做到！
no point giving all these big talks and yet no actions.
yes , this is applying to me and maybe others .
This exam is so totally not worth of our precious tears .
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i do have so much to talk about .
but , kinda forgot anyway :x
tata~

2008-10-13T18:29:00.003+08:00

Our sweetest songs are those that tell of the saddest thoughts.

i can be so dissapointed in my results for the exams manzxzxzxzxz !!!!!!!
);
yet , I'M GONNA STAY POSITIVE .
I'm so not gonna cry over this pathetic EOY .
cheers for those who cried today ,
stay strong always .
I kept repeating this today to those people ...
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我还是那句话，做人要开兴一点！
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

I'm too ashamed to reveal my marks . god damn it .
So many people choose to go to jc ,
yet ... i feel that poly is a much better option for me.
JC IS SO FREAKING STRESSFUL LO !!!!!!!
At least you don't have to stay up all night to study for papers and all at poly ._.
Which is really kinda impossible for me , to study ?!
fat hope -.- !

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i actually had a 'decent' conversation with my uncles and aunties yesterday night.
hoho ^^.
It feels like bitching around with girl friends with the same age , yet , hell no !
they are a bunch of 40's , matured people .
seriously , they make me think that its not mission impossible ,
for children to click with adults .
-pft , im crapping rubbish around here , ran out of ideas on what to write.-

It's starting it again ?
I'm missing you so .

p/s. i wanna go kbox again ):):
i wanna go shopping !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
$_$

2008-10-11T17:31:00.001+08:00

I miss the old times .
just you and me .
When we were so close friends .

2008-10-10T21:56:00.004+08:00

Drats, I'm feeling so depressed manzxzxzxzxzxzxzzxzxz !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
went out with clique to marina square today .
To celebrate CCH's belated birthday.
:D

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i have so much to blog about , including the whole process for today.
yet mainly , about some of my 不满 towards SOME people .
but i just wanna clarify its NON of my beloved mates (:
Just some people particular , who makes me so fcking pissed off,
by their actions , their attitude , their character .
teehee .

pulled myself from the bed , honestly , i thought i was late .
freak freak .
yet i was the one who ended up the earliest to reach the mrt .
what an achievement i have made.
train-ed all the way till city hall , walked till marina .
i seem to be in a very bad mood i guess (?) , along the way.
mood swings -.- .

FINALLY , settled down to have our lunch at Jack's Place .
i guess everybody was starving to death , with all the grumble faces :/
oops ! except me . no appetite to eat again .
i guess i should really go see a doctor , like asap ! for a check up with my freaking body #@^$%
freaking hell full with the set meal -,- . i really felt like puking then .
conghao was really touched by von's handmade bouquet :D
& their handmade cupcakes . AWWS ~
eh , I'm not that heartless not to give her present either. (x

walked around the whole area ,
shaiks , i really gotta bring mummy come with me the next time lo !
so many items caught my eye ._.
I really do hope i can catch Connected or MammaMia sooner or later :/
-handsomehotguys alert .-
Didn't watch MammaMia as planned ,
POOF . KBOX for about 4 hours .
<3

ps. photos with bel . uploading soon.

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NNB, YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT'S COPYRIGHTED DE WORH !?
_l_
Can't you just realised that I'm freaking avoiding you all times la **** ?
yes , it does not entirely belong to me .
But you did get the idea from me i assumed, since none close to you does.
You are making me feel that your 1 damn bootlicker , trying to get close to all.
aiyo , take a mirror and reflect please . like I'm begging you right now.
You have exactly no shame at all .
i pity you.

ps . i really do hate those hypocrites and busybodies.
So stop being so kpo . yes , and i mean you.

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I'm feeling so .............................................................
angry (?) , disappointed (?) , depressed (?) .
i really do think I'm having depression :/
i think really deep nowadays , and i have no idea what's wrong with me.
life and death , hell and heaven .
shaiks , i seem to be really very emo liao lo -.- !

2008-10-06T16:47:00.002+08:00

Now, then i know your just a wolf hiding under a sheep's skin.

EXAMS WERE PRETTY SMOOTH FOR ME.
:D

i hope i pass . * fingers cross*
with last minute studying ,
i did pretty well by cramming all the notes in my kuku brain.
especially SCIENCE . SO PROUD OF IT.

the part where i managed to memorize all the notes for the whole year.
& not by the science paper.
foooook. i really hope i do well.
i have never seen myself so hardworking before . );

Didn't really had the mood to study these few days.
._.
was chionging audition with YingYi.
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

and i actually made her become addicted to audi ! *beams*

I hate yellow york. DISGUSTING.
I hate creepy crawlies. YICK.
I hate being alone in the dark. SO SCARY~
I hate HELLOKITTY. (!!!!!) BITCH.
I hate my sister.
I hate my nagging from parents.
I hate that your a hyprocrite.
I hate that your such a bitch .
I hate that your such a pain in the neck.
I hate your whinnings all day long.
I hate my life.
_l_

2008-10-05T12:02:00.003+08:00

You have no right to interfer in my personal life.
You don't have the authority to order me around whenever you want to.
You don't have the right to interfer in my decisions .
If you're not happy with what i type.
you can jolly just stfu .
It's my blog.
Unhappy with it , so ?
_l_

2008-10-02T18:28:00.001+08:00

MIA .

2008-09-27T21:16:00.003+08:00

I have no idea what to type.
I have an urge to vent my anger , yet lost of ideas how to.

celdric :
You make me feel freaking pissed off with your actions , boy !
So you just shove me away , went off to find ur so called rinn is it !?
WOW , you did not changed a bit.
even after how i scolded you last year.

You make me feel that i'm just a friend who is a substitute , a dog.
You came to me , only when there's no one there to pei you.
Yet, when you found someone.
you just stayed with her , without caring me ?
who is more important ? her , whom you know hardly a few days ,
or me , who tried her best to accompany you when your down always.

You PRETENDED to show me concern and all ,
trying to patch up with me when im angry.
IT SEEM ALL SO FAKE OKAY !
YOU JUST APOLOGISED FOR THE SAKE OF ME NOT GETTING MAD AT YOU.
AND YET NOT REALLY DEEP DOWN FROM YOUR HEART.

wtf is this now ?
Since im so not the worth of your concern and attention ,
why should i bother to maintain this friendship of ours ?
totally pointless .

one freaking despo sec 1 guy :
Don't come bootlicking me when i don't even know you well in the 1st place.
So what is this about ?
trying to maintain a close friendship with me ,
and using me to make advantages for you ?
your so fake man.

Stop acting all the emo actions of yours , like right now.
I tried to show concern to you by consoling you , yet you refused to accept the help i offered.
then why should i continue to be patience with you ?

You don't even treat me as your friend , im just a tool to you.
You called me so that i can accompany you in audition.
fine , i tried my best to rush back .
and yet , what's the 1st thing you said to me?
you just gave me a hi .
and then asked me to intro you to some sec 1 girls who are chio to you in my schl.
i was like oh okay ...
i gave u 1 of my junior friendster url ,
yet you told me that you don't like . oh wtf ? do you have the right to choose then.
freaking pissed off , you told me to find for you.
i said i need to go off check something .
yet you whined and complained .
' WALAO EH. PANGSEI ME DE YOU .'

HELLO. I HAVE ALREADY BEEN HELPFUL TO YOU, YET YOU DIDNT EVEN EXPRESS YOUR GRATITUDE . AND YOU HAVE THE CHEEK TO COMPLAIN.
okay, i was being a kind person ,
I GOT ANOTHER GIRL FRIENDSTER URL ,
JUST FOR YOU.

Yet you can actually say ,
only 1 ah ?
can help me find a few more ?
freak. you don't have hands is it to find . need me to do everything for you.
want jio girls also lazy is it.
i replied ' there's no free lunch in the world '
' want jio , do it yourself. '
You can actually whined again .
WOW.
' walao eh , you never helped me de.'

didn't i helped you enough ?
though i was in a bad mood , gonna explode sooner or later.
i kept my cool , talked in a nicely manner.
' you just clicked her friends la .
got so many choices for you
slowly find la ! '

' don't want la. you help me can.'
plz plz '

FCK . YOU'RE A ONE LAZY GUY .
couldn't stand you , i caps .
when i'm done talking with you...
NOT EVEN A SINGLE THANK YOU FROM YOU ? _l_
i couldn't be bothered about you anymore.
put the busy sign for my msn , went off to audi.
came back from audi , changed the sign back to online.

YOU CAME TALKING TO ME ONCE AGAIN.
i have no idea there's such a person so thick skin is it.
it's pretty obvious that im pissed off with you.
yet you have the cheek to come talk to me
pretending nothing actually happened.
and came asking for my help again.

' that girl orh , i add her she ask me who i am '
' i told her , she go delete me leh , how ? '
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why ask me ? do i look like im a freaking genius to you ? well im sorry im not.
i can't predict or figure out why she did that okay !
i replied to you i dunno .
you actually can say ;
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' you help me can . ask her why delete me and add me back '
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FCK FCK FCK FCK.
YOU THINK I SO FREE TO ENTERTAIN YOU THIS LOSER AH.
KAPUI *
ZZZ , NOT EVEN A THANK YOU OR AN APPRECIATION .
HOW DO YOUR PARENTS EDUCATE YOU AH .
tsk.

i can only say ,
you're a son of a bitch.
and for once ,
i extremely hate guys (!) and melissa liau min wen.

ps./ tried to control my using of vulgarities already.
too mad. can't be helped.

2008-09-24T18:42:00.003+08:00

I'm not the one for you , neither are you the one for me ♥

You taught me how to love , right after i have fallen deeply.
You taught me how to laugh .
You taught me everything you knew ,
yet you didn't taught me how to face the fact that you actually don't love me anymore.

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FOOOKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.
i hate boys , yes i do.
and im getting in love with girls sooner or later.
*cheers*
-random-

YVONNE TAN & CHRYSILLA CUT MY HAIR TODAY !
FREE OF CHARGE.

:D

isabel said i was looking VERY EMO due to my length of hair .

okay. it was my fringe mainly ,
it was suppose to be just ONE TINY snip to cut off my long ends.
but yet .....
they were getting the fun out of it ....

so here it goes.
*snip snip snip *

you can tell a difference in my hair now .
:D
which its good btw , so they can be potential hair stylist in future !

lessons were kinda boring today. gossiped for about 2 hours during music & hcl.
during the start of english , i was getting weird.
yes my eyes turn bloody red , kept sniffing and coughing non-stop.
meiyi started to get worried. isabel started to get freaked out when she found out i almost could not breathe.
aww~

okay. back to the point.
i rushed to toilet , washed washed . my face looking seriously pale.

toilet auntie came , thought i was crying cause teacher scolded me -.- '
told her had breathing difficulties ,
she was *wow.* *shock*
aiyo , don't study liao.
go see doctor. this type very dangerous de.

lmao. toilet auntie can be so cute.
especially when she talking in her own dialact and i cnt figure out wtf she talking.
heeyo , went to have lunch with wanzhen,chrys,bel,von and celine after that (:
laughed till peng throughout.
didn't really had the appetiete to eat then.

2008-09-23T21:35:00.003+08:00

HEY BOY , LOOK HERE .
YOU SUCK BIG TIME MAN ! _l_
you this fcking nb asshole.
i don't even know why i wasted my time on you man.

WHEN YOU NEED ME,
CALL ME .
WHEN YOU DON'T NEED ME.
YOU SHOO ME OFF.

ccb.
don't even care about me liao lo.
you zai.
you got gang liao bu qi is it.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!
honggan la .
fckerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
YOU HAVE MADE ME FCKING PISSED OFF.
AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHY DID I FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU IN THE 1ST PLACE.
_l_
you're 1 piece of shit.

2008-09-21T16:26:00.004+08:00

21Sept'08 1.27am
The day i heard your voice once again.

you said we're drifting apart , yes.
You made my heart skip a beat when you called.
You didn't forget me after all, or maybe you did ....
Am i always the one who is just a companion who you need to talk to ?
Can i even be counted as a close friend to you ?
You have changed, even better perhaps.
which makes me even more worried .
I'm afraid of losing you to others .
Don't you understand that jealousy kills ?
Why do you have to call me when I'm in the midst of forgetting you ...
and all those memories.
Why do you have to come into my life , ruining it now and then.
Why do you always have to give me false hope , when you have already broken my heart .
Why can't you just stay far far away , so that i will not think of you.
Loving you was easy, losing you was hard.
Loving you is still easy, but knowing you are no longer mine, is the hardest of it all.
The dumbest thing i have ever done was to fall in love with you.
Yet, it's the best thing that have ever happened in my life.
You told me to imagine you were beside me , talking to me through the whole night.
how, i wish you were really there....
We joked , we laughed. i was having fun .
Sudden all the memories came flowing back into my mind .
you 're making me hurt once again .
Stop giving me all the false hope when i knew it will never happen once again.
Maybe if I had just looked away that first night you came towards me,
everything would be different and my heart wouldn't be breaking right now.
Thanks for the perfect night .
i will never forget the conversation we had during the 5 hours.
♥

ps/ , i just blog what i feel .

2008-09-19T22:33:00.008+08:00

IMABIGFCKINGSLUT
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2008-09-19T22:33:00.005+08:00

BAD MOOD SWINGS !
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Kinda flared temper at lfei at msn :x

kinda feel bad about it . I'm always the one making him angry.
shaiks.
SORRY LFEI !
(if he reads, i hope :x)

anyway, have i mentioned abt the major day which is today ?!
yes yes. WE HAD 3 TESTS IN THE ROW ! -.-
god damn sake. to think that i give up on revising science and maths to chiong art.
but i uber love my rose ! ♥
so its worth it.
well , the science test was okay....
but normally when i think its ok , i will do badly for the paper :x
for maths, kinda okay for me . managed to figure out the answers.
at least i hope i won't fail :}
and i came upon some pictures of different colours of rose on a website last night.
i can only say was

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THE PINK AND BLUE ROSE DAMN FCKING CHIO DE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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~ The Blue Rose ~The Blue Rose is a truly unusual bloom. It is not a natural colour that occurs in nature. It is painstakingly created from the genes of other flora and has been given the significance of 'something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue.The Blue Rose conveys mystery and secrecy. It represents the enigmatic and something which is just out of reach. An achievement beyond ones grasp. A vision, a dream yet to be attained. A surreal and exquisite vision of a colour which doesn't quite sit with ease upon the rose. A fantasy, a remarkable image which excites the imagination and is stunning to behold, and it translates the meaning onto the person. You would give the Blue Rose to a complex personality, an enigma, a person with many layers. A person who holds true fascination for you.The Blue Rose in its lightest form is akin to the lilac rose and it represents Love at first sight. A love to last forever and as such it would be given to someone you have fallen in love with. Such is the strong representation of the Blue Rose.

~ The Pink rose: ~The pink rose is a classic 'Thank you rose'. It is used to show thanks, admiration and happiness. If you receive a mixed bunch of pink and yellow, it indicates friendship. But if the pink is mixed with red, this can be taken as a sign of romance. Just as the red rose stands for deep love, the watered coloring of pink stands for lesser love, verging on friendship. So the pink rose would be an ideal gift to give on the start of a relationship

if only got anybody kind enough to buy for me....

*hints* :}

i have nothing much to blog about already for the day....
just that im fcking stress up over exams !
and other stuffs.
toodles ~